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And one thing I haven’t been able to stop thinking about is how so many things which people say (that are considered “childish”) would be perfectly appropriate with a neurotypical tone. A lot of it is like “wow no one ever asks/says that because we have this other nebulous social routine I just do even though it doesn’t make sense”

I hate it here lolololololololol

I’ve been in a bit of a tough spot with my (highly suspected) autism and haven’t been able to be my masked self in quite a bit. I’m not sure if anyone can relate, but my masking used to be somewhat controllable but now I’m really bad at it—like to the point where I’m hesitant to go out in public because I’ve forgotten how to human. Like I used to be decent at acting in general, but that’s no longer the case

But anyway. I wish so desperately that I could just have access to how NTs conduct themselves in conversation just so I could have a framework for reference. Does something like this exist anywhere? Think of it as me copying people and changing up their behavior just a bit (which is how I’ve gone through my life)

So many options to learn about things. I genuinely haven’t had an idea for how to make friends like a “normal” person since I hit burnout (and subsequently started to unmask with seemingly little control). Also, does anyone have tips/tricks for how to retain existing friendships without appearing codependent/needy?

I can only stand to be around people who make my brain go brrrrrrrrrrr and I would die for those people. In fact, I’ve had nights staying up until 4 am going in circles with those people, and I wouldn’t change it for the world.

Just part and parcel of living in the freest country on earth I suppose

Is a random phrase I thought of in the shower the other day and would like someone to steal for a Midwest emo track

Too niche a suggestion or can people see where I’m coming from?

Lately, I’ve been realizing I’m really fucking unfunny, and I genuinely think that quality is important when building any type of relationship with someone, friendship or otherwise. I know people always say that there are no “rules” but I genuinely believe they don’t understand how neurodivergent people view rules, but it seems that there is one rule guiding everything. Because a shit ton of anything in life comes down to verbal delivery. I can speak fine, but the tone of my voice has been the source for a shit ton of trauma.

There are two songs that can emotionally wreck me and both are associated with people I only went on a few dates with

I don’t know shit, but I think this means I’m not over those people. Not even my ex did this to me.

If this makes sense, the thought of willingly subjecting myself to this feeling again seems awful but the crying kinda helps. Fuck

If I see another email from chuck schumer or Adam schiff Im going to lose my mind

I’ve run into a problem from here though. Every Godamn company has their software of choice or whatever, EVEN THOUGH the softwares are functionally identical, have the same components, and work the same way overall. Is this not neoliberalism incarnate lol

So you HAVE to say that you’re familiar with this obscure software to get your foot in the door but then you have to talk about it in an interview like your previous org has used it in the past (even though they haven’t).

Does anyone have any life hacks for this particular situation

Maybe it’s because I’m extremely slow to process things, but so many of the skits/songs are such a perfect encapsulation for the current age that we live in like damn. He sorta just walks through how we’re basically already “inside” to begin with, considering the fact that the internet is ubiquitous, we do everything from communicating with our parents to dating to consuming (Amazon speaks for itself). And at the end he basically talks about how we’re past the point of no return so the only thing left to do is consume more content. And like the fact that it was released just shortly after COVID when being “inside” was the least we could do to slow the effects of a pandemic (and to no avail).

How is that not all super underrated? The guy has had his finger on the pulse of the algorithmic age since his early/edgy days but I mean he really fucking nailed it.

It’s extremely bleak though because a lot of normies in my life are looking at this Information Age as the next step in evolution where people must adapt or be left behind. But idk man I kinda miss talking to people in real life and having some kind of connection with the physical world

Gaaaaaaaa like I really fucking hate it. I don’t know anyone in my life who hasn’t met their partner on some sort of dating app and I truly think there was a way to establish some sort of balance

I hate living in a society fr