rhadamanth_nemes

Bashir: Well, Garak? Back to my quarters? You can brush my hair, undress me everywhere...

You are likely a troll, but still...

You talk like you have never been down in the well, treading water and looking up at the sky, barely keeping your head up. You're screaming for help, to the God you don't believe in, or for something, anything, please just let the pain stop, please.

Maybe you use, drink, fuck, cut, who fucking knows.

When you find a friendly voice who doesn't ghost your ass when you have a bad day or two, or ten, or a month, or two, or ten... Maybe you feel a bit of a connection, a small tether that you want to help lighten your load, even a little.

You tell that voice you are hurting every day, that nothing makes sense, that you just want two fucking minutes of peace from everything, from yourself. And then you say maybe you are thinking of ending it... And the voice agrees with you.

There are more than a few moments in my life where I was close enough to the abyss that this is all it would have taken.

Search your soul for some empathy. If you don't know what that is, maybe Chatgpt can tell you.

I seem to recall the same impression when I read it the first time. After I read White Gryphon, rereading Black Gryphon was easier... You know who the "main characters" are.

I really liked the Skandranon books and Valdemar books. A reread sounds like fun!

What is toxic empathy..?

420 praise him

What is Anathema?

It's not easy... The more you try the easier it gets, though.

When I was younger I thought that "not giving a fuck about what others think" meant that I could be angry and rude, cold, aggressive, scary.

Nowadays I see it as making myself "vulnerable" by trying to be kind, happy, and to try to make others around me happier, even just a little bit. Not giving a fuck if someone rolls their eyes at me for putting out positive energy is the true form of "not giving a fuck about what others think".

Clean break. Stop texting, talking, thinking about this person (you will end up doing so anyway so no need to go out of your way).

Break ups SUCK and it can take a while to feel normal again, but the one thing that can make it worse is dragging out the communication and texting and Facebook stalking etc. Gotta let me yourself heal around the place that this relationship took up in you.

Reading some accounts of domestic abuse victims might out some things in perspective. You're worth more than this.

I see some folks saying sarcastic stuff about this, which is valid certainly.

For me a grounding statement like this can help remind me that I don't need to be guilty about something stupid I did decades ago. Or help me refocus on the present when I am in an anxiety spiral.

Sometimes it is OK to chill in bed. If you don't want to do what you're doing, maybe think about something small you can do, like maybe slide down to sit on the floor. Maybe by taking some small steps you'll find yourself moving.