Oh, I am going to try to replicate this study. I'll hit you back in about 50 years if it worked.
You were in a corrugated plastic pipe factory and the cigarettes were an issue? Damn. You would think the VOC off-gassing from hot plastic would break you first...
Yeah, I wasn't doing shit at 19 but spending all day at a coffee shop, learning how to make fake IDs and playing pool at night.
I still drink coffee, work in IT Security and play a sick game of pool +25 years later. So by some measures, I haven't accomplished much of anything either. (I jest. I have had a very interesting life, but it hadn't even started yet when I was 19.)
I am a huge advocate of psychedelic therapy, but I would be a bit wary of it for younger adults unless OP is willing to submit to a study.
By all means, OP should talk to a professional about it, but it still seems like it would be in an experimental phase for that age range.
Very fast, right at the base of the skull.
The boredom and accompanying loneliness sucks ass. The boredom was the first thing that hit me and our situations seem nearly 1:1.
And yeah, the boredom is probably a key factor in my personality change and I didn't make that connection. The loneliness absolutely is too. ie: All my drinking buddies seem to have disappeared and I wasn't quite prepared for that, TBH. (I knew it was a thing already though.)
Self-medication was absolutely a factor for me, and I still see it all the time amongst my peers. As such, I am extremely open about my place on the spectrum and extremely open about my alcoholism. (My goal is not to "diagnose" people with a disorder, but to hopefully trigger a chain of events that leads to a person seeking assistance on their own.)
If I had to speculate, alcohol tempered my hyperactivity for a good number of years. While I am aware that is a huge part of my personality change, it's absolutely not the complete picture.
It's more anxiety that can cause my depression and my anxiety and depression is only a shadow of what it once was since quitting the booze.
Most of that stems from ADHD and the bubble of problems that come from that. It could be possible that some ADHD'isms have simply gotten the chance to blossom fully over the last couple of years.
That combo is too inefficient for me. I like coffee, but if I am prioritizing caffeine and still want something more sugary, an energy drink would be fine.
So, a bottle of water and a large Red bull would be sufficient and easier to transport, while also staying in-line with what I would carry around if I really wanted multiple experiences.
And not always nice
There have only been one or two people I have met that were more tolerable when they drank, so I get what you mean.
Still, I find it hard to believe that long term sobriety wouldn't be a net positive unless it wasn't a person's own decision to stop drinking in the first place.
I like it when rooms feel open. Even without open floor plans, strategic furniture placement and wall paint can make almost any room feel a bit more spacious, even if it is just an illusion.
Rooms like the one in the picture make me feel like the walls are closing in on me, or I start to get false feelings that it is dirty or musty. The small room in the back of that space doesn't look welcoming and resembles some place were only bad things happen. I can't help but start to imagine the sound of an old grandfather clock ticking in the background as a weird sign that I will be stuck in that room for a while.
Or sooner, once the medicine kicks in.