ratboy

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[–] ratboy@hexbear.net 4 points 1 year ago

Thank you so much agony-wholesome

Normally I can handle that kind of news pretty well; but I think with starting new medication I really got fucked up. All my clients are typically homeless with substance use issues and serious/persistent mental illness so this kinda thing isn't uncommon for me to hear...but it never feels fair, especially once you get to know someone and hear about how cool their hobbies and lives are (were) and how many are just such funny and kind and gentle people.

Death to america

[–] ratboy@hexbear.net 17 points 1 year ago (9 children)

Started my Strattera yesterday, then found out one of my clients may have brain cancer, then another social services worker told me another one of my clients passed away. Yes, I started bawling in my office. Yes, I immediately sucked it up to help the next person bc the distraction is what helps. Yes that client immediately broke into existential crisis mode about everything being fucking hopeless because he's homeless and has no stability and everything gets stolen from him and he gets assaulted and tracked down since he saved up 4,000 fucking soda and beer cans to recycle so he could buy himself a nice bike and now he's a mark.

agony-deep

[–] ratboy@hexbear.net 4 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

Crash Bandicoot, Star Ocean 2, Legend of Legaia, Klonoa, Final Fantasy 7 of course, Kingdom Hearts 1

Earthbound, Super Mario World, Chrono Trigger, Donkey Kong Country, Sonic & Knuckles, Bust-a-Move, Vectorman

[–] ratboy@hexbear.net 3 points 1 year ago (1 children)

The flowers are so cute!! I feel like pitcher plants can be super finicky and yours looks great for growing from seed, I'm jealous

[–] ratboy@hexbear.net 1 points 1 year ago

Yeah, I took my first dose this morning at 18mg. The first 30 minutes were pretty weird but I seem to have levelled out.

I already read up on a lot of the side effects on reddit lol but trying to keep in mind that it's really life changing for some people with little to no side effects. I just hate the idea of having to stick it out for a month or two to see if I come out on the other side and it's the drug for me or not. But better than nothing, I suppose

[–] ratboy@hexbear.net 2 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Hmm interesting. I've never taken wellbutrin but I'm currently on Lamictal. Do you experience any side effects?

[–] ratboy@hexbear.net 2 points 1 year ago (1 children)

This seems to be a lot of what I'm hearing which sucks :/ can I ask how long you were on it for and what symptoms you're trying to treat? I took my first dose this morning, it was weird but I evened out a bit. Now I just feel totally unmotivated lol

[–] ratboy@hexbear.net 2 points 1 year ago

I love reading everything you write on here. You're so knowledgeable and I admire that as someone who really likes to research about mental illness and neurodivergence.

I met with my psychiatrist yesterday and she prescribed be ADHD meds, but said that I likely wasn't autistic. It sucks because I dont really remember my childhood; I did well in school and had neglectful parents so CPTSD is definitely a part of my experience, so...the impostor syndrome continues lol

[–] ratboy@hexbear.net 6 points 1 year ago (1 children)

I randomly got to see them behind a book store while passing through Phoenix AZ. They are still freaky hippies lol

[–] ratboy@hexbear.net 5 points 1 year ago

I always like to think that lemmy was named after our lord and savior Mr. Kilmeister

[–] ratboy@hexbear.net 12 points 1 year ago

Me trying to set boundaries for myself: "hey guys I need to step away from the bargaining table, it's really severely impacting my mental health and I havent had a personal life in a year. I'll try to help in whatever way I can! Thanks for understanding"

Me, feeling guilty for setting boundaries: spends 7 hours on a work day writing 9 proposals along with arguments and counters, talk to my comrades for an hour on the phone about strategy

Two days later: thinks about going to the table anyway

[–] ratboy@hexbear.net 4 points 1 year ago

I will listen to it and report back rat-salute-2

 

"We are focused on producing all types of weapons and ammunition, and we show that we can test it on the battlefield and make it better during the war,” Kamyshin said. “That’s something we can contribute to the free world, because as you see, defense industry is becoming more and more important globally.”

 

“We are focused on producing all types of weapons and ammunition, and we show that we can test it on the battlefield and make it better during the war,” Kamyshin said. “That’s something we can contribute to the free world, because as you see, defense industry is becoming more and more important globally.”

 

"Majazz Project is a Palestinian-led record label and research platform founded by Mo’min Swaitat in 2020. Over several years, Mo’min amassed an archive of rare tapes and vinyl from Palestine and beyond, spanning field recordings of Bedouin weddings to revolutionary tracks and synth-heavy 80s funk and jazz. Many of these were acquired from a former record label in Jenin in the north of the West Bank.

Majazz Project was borne out of the archive and is focused on sampling, remixing and reissuing vintage Palestinian and Arabic albums. It is a collaboration between Arab and non-Arab DJs, producers and artists interested in shedding new light on the richness and diversity of Arab musical heritage.

Palestine Sound Archive is a celebration of music, spoken word and album artwork from historic Palestine, mainly from the 1960s-1990s."

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Never saw them but when I broke into my punk scene arond 2008, a bunch of friends played shows with Warkrime and talked about Brace. It was wild to see years later that he was someone who went to fight with the Kurdish

 

Another article about a town in Kansas that bought their own grocery store. It seems to have had success and motivated town residents to open up other stores and create programs. It sounds like it is also funded as a utility, so a monthly bill charged to the residents and they can shop for what the need.

Rural Kansas and Chicago embracing juche? We will see

 

It's going to swing back up into the 80's in the next week for me but damnit I am ready for spooky weather! I really turn towards a lost of shoegaze, post punk, darkwave etc. Cascadian black metal is also acceptable. Here are some cozy weather bangers:

Cocteau Twins - Blue Bell Knoll (Linked): Darkwave, New Wave, ???. The first couple of Cocteau Twins albums are phenomenal, way better than Heaven or Las Vegas in my opinion.

Them Are Us Too - Eudaemonia: Darkwave, synth. Seriously a fucking beautiful song, makes me cry every time. Cash, one of the members, passed away during the Ghost Ship fire in Oakland several years ago. RIP, way too young.

Siouxie and the Banshees - Cities in Dust: Darkwave. Ultimate gothnight banger. Definitely a song that gives me goosebumps, never gets old.

Sonic Youth - Shadow of a Doubt: Postpunk, shoegaze. From Sonic Youth's first album, Kim Gordon's breathy vocals are so hot! The whole tone of the song just feels cold, perfect for gray rainy weather.

Bauhaus - She's In Parties: Deathrock, darkwave. Pretty much the godfathers of goth along with Siouxie and the Banshees and the Cure, classic.

My Bloody Valentine - Soft As Snow: Shoegaze. This song gets the spraybottle spray-bottle

Agalloch - The Mantle (Full Album): Cascadian Black Metal. Sad, melodic, cacophonous. Truly a masterpiece. Not traditional black metal if that typically turns you off. Listen to it.

Asunder - Rite of Finality: Funeral doom, acoustic. A fucking 50 minute song that I swear just feels like an entire album. Dino from Dystopia performs. Pretty, brutal, haunting and depressing as hell. Perfect for winter.

 

It is so cute it hurts and the soundtrack is super cool. What are some other games you'd suggest for Cult of the Lamb lovers?

I just got a refurbished old hp laptop for free and I can do some gaming on Steam but uh, it's not a gaming laptop per se. I also have a switch. Hit me!

 

First heard this band played as intermission music during a Twitch stream of a dude playing sitar covers of random doom metal songs. Yes, that's right.

First Utterance quickly became an album I obsessed over. At the time I was delving into a lot of forgotten 70's psychedelic music from the US and other countries so it was a real treat to find out about this. It's dark, creepy, beautiful, acoustic, heavy.

From their bandcamp: "Forged in the creative crucible of 1968’s ‘Summer of Love’, Comus took a decidedly darker path than flower-draggled hippiedom, with a prophetic counter-culture vision of ferocious, glowering firepower."

 

I haven't owned a functioning laptop in like, ten years because my phone does most of what I like, but I (probably) have tendinitis and carpal tunnel and need something more ergonomic for my terminally online needs. Arguing with strangers on the internet is not as effective on a cell phone lol.

I'm mostly streaming media, researching online and screwing around on lemmy. I'm interested in toying around with linux just to try it as an OS but would probably want to keep windows because Im not super tech savvy as people here seem to be. That said I can figure things out pretty quickly if I put my mind to it. I would like the ability to game if I wanted, but that might mean a whole different beast so if I could even run at least SNES roms or something like that that would be cool. I'd also like a decent sized screen, 16 inches at least. Hoping not to spend more than 1k if possible but I'm old and don't know what the average price is really for something that's upper-middle quality so whatever clever.

Thanks for any recommendations!

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submitted 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago) by ratboy@hexbear.net to c/labour@hexbear.net
 

I work at a non profit and we just won union recognition and are slowly moving towards first contract negotiations and I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING. Would love to chat with some folks about their experiences, especially if you've negotiated around contracts/grants/etc.

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