ratboy

It's been a long time since I've been tested but any blood panels I've had done came back normal, so not sure it's that and my thyroid had been checked before and came back within the normal range. I've been dealing with this years before covid emerged, so I don't think it has anything to do with that, although who knows it it's exacerbated any problems.

I've had my thyroid checked in the past due to fatigue and I was within normal limits; at the time I was hoping that eoulf be the answer to my problems but nope. This has been plaguing me for a long time, I do have a lot of mental health issues but probably wouldn't hurt to do another blood panel or check for any auto immune issues. Being a human is hard lol

I was taking a bunch of supplements and multis and didn't notice much of a difference, I don't think. Maybe I should get another blood panel done though it's been a long time

Howwwwwwwww do yall have energy at any point in your lives? I'm so. Tired. All. Of. The. Time. 6 hours, 8 hours, 10 hours of sleep, I usually feel just the same, slogging through everything. I'm taking a super extended vacation from work and even then it seems to have done nothing for my energy. I woke up today motivated to go ride my bike or go to the gym and get out, but I woke up already ready to go back to sleep, so fucking exhausted. How do I fix??? I'm autistic and believe I have adhd but I'm unmedicated and it's kinda like not really worth being alive if I can't even muster the energy to do this I enjoy

I was/am one of the originators of the union drive at my work, currently bargaining our first contract. I was burnt out from the work/toxic management/normal life things before, but have completely hit the wall. I am lucky that I'm able to take like a month long vacation from work and in so doing I'm also backing off from the union stuff a bit.

For the positive, I think my excitement and hyperfixation on learning and compiling was probably very much needed to keep momentum. I am very comfortable with everyone I was organizing with and it seemed like I had a knack for kinda getting everyone together. It kinda became a special interest/hyper fixation so I feel like that was a strength. But, I also was so obsessed and would ruminate so much I'd lose sleep thinking about it and strategizing and I think I burned myself out.

It's been extremely taxing and a complete Rollercoaster ride of exciting, invigorating, demoralizing, and frustrating. I'm AuDHD and so for the first year basically I was going HARD researching everything I could to figure out how to start a union, persuading my coworkers, networking with other unionized social service workers, compiling other contracts to study, reading strategy, acting as a de facto steward, being on the bargaining committee.....it's left me with hardly any energy for work even, much less any other kind of socializing or ability to participate in other political/mutual aid activities....I'm kinda dreading going back to it, because I feel like I've really carried the whole process and am so so tired. I'm really proud to be a part of it but I don't know that I would be able to be the main organizer to herd all the cats as the figure of speech goes, way too taxing for me

I was on the hexbear then stopped the hexbear and now I'm back on again and I forgot how many chuckles it's worth hourly. Sad when your burnout is so bad you don't have the energy to juggle multiple social media platforms.

I was having a drunk argument with my friend the other day about politics and somehow Mao came up and he told me that people had to eat rocks and he killed all of the intellectuals. I didn't know enough to refute him outright with direct knowledge of the times but like, eat rocks? Can you fucking even hear the words coming out of your mouth, bud?

Now I'm reading a bunch about Mao and it's really interesting and Oppose Book Worship basically refutes everything he was saying lol. I think spite is my main motivator for learning now.

One of my favorite bands ever. Don't know if you're familiar with Despise You but I got to see them cover this song in a coffee shop, it was one of the best things ever

I think I burnt myself out after being a middle schooler that would sneak the landlines phone in my room and spend literally 3 hours on the phone every night orsnk calling with friends lol. Now I dread phone calls and actively avoid them

Which phone are you using rn? I was looking at a couple different options since my crappy Samsung is on its way out

I forgot about those! lol the locals bylaws are only in the office. He's also one out of maybe two reps for my region so I'm kind of shit out of luck. He's extremely burnt out and I get that but it almost feels like we are being worked against, it's horrible.

I fucking hate my union rep so much; my comrades and myself are putting so much work in and he can't even so much as give a yes or no answer to whether or not our employer is pulling some fuckshit. We have to press him for weeks to send any questions to the lawyer. He doesn't read our emails unless we pester him about it. And I'm obsessive compulsive about this shit, it's taken over my whole life and I wish it even felt good to organize but it doesn't, there haven't been any wins and I just want to give up