I took a class at Stryker Forge in Port Townsend, WA, USA. Guy’s actual name is Stryker Gooch and he won an episode of Forged in Fire, which is how I found him.
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I love knives so probably just lots of knives 🤭
Thanks, it was a blast! The knife works great. I learned a ton and am tempted to set up a cheap forge in my garage.
Thank you! LECA sounds like great stuff, I’ve ordered some and I’ll give it a try. Do you just water with a diluted orchid fertilizer?
Wonderful! Do you have any tips or resources for orchid care? What’s the rocky stuff you put them in? I’ve always seen bark chips but my orchids aren’t happy.
It makes the account seem legitimate, same as on Reddit.
I tend to buy the misfits on purpose out of fear of them being thrown out
My mother has a partially shame based operating system. She uses self shame as a motivational tool that increases her executive function, e.g. she manages to diet by responding to the part of her that tells her to eat chocolate with shame for wanting chocolate. She avoids the chocolate and goes on with her life.
She tried to install that same operating system in me. Due to my shame sensitivity it paralyzed me and left me unable to function. Instead I would spiral in shame and self hatred for my inability to do what she wanted me to do, even though I wanted to do it too.
My system actually works pretty well with love as motivation instead of shame. It just took me 15 years of intensive commitment to inner work to unravel the shame.
I love your descriptions, they provide a beautiful felt sense of the longing. I think that longing is universal, though the images we associate with it are different (warm climate, etc.)
This is a spiritual longing, the heart’s desire to be whole, to be home, to no longer feel separate. Your intuition is correct that just moving to a new place won’t resolve this longing. Everywhere you go, there you are, and you have brought all the inner baggage along with you (trauma, family and cultural conditioning, etc.) After the newness of a place wears off, the old issues return.
I’ve been on a quest to fulfill this longing over the last 15 years, through many various spiritual and psychological practices. Recently I feel that sense of wholeness again regularly, daily even. It’s been a long path to get there. If this resonates with you I’m happy to answer your questions.
Cuts paper, and the pork butt I tested it on today :)