Hello, after an entire life collapse, I was trying to kill myself daily for about a month straight last year, I was hanging from the ceiling and researching poisons and firearms. The thoughts stayed around for many months. I moved back in with my parents after losing my place to stay.
What helped me was physical and creative productivity. I leveled patio stones and landscaped for my parents. I did IT (iPad, wifi, TV, printer) help for elderly neighbours. I trained my parent's dog to open doors with its nose. I forced myself back into music and visual art through learning game and web dev.
After many months of mixing these types of activities in with my default (1000 yard stare or lying down with my eyes closed), I started to crave the activities. I realised that I was smiling at things like trees, birds and friendly faces. It was definitely worth the effort.
LOL. I totally thought this was a link to a hip hop record from that thumbnail