i know the feeling. My grandma lived until she was abotu 97 or 98. I think she wanted nothing more than to die. She was in constant pain, tired of being alive etc.
There was a biologist here in australia before VAD was passed who went to europe to die, because they had VAD. I forget his name, but australia now has VAD under very specific criteria. *: found it: https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-44069885
I'm only middle aged, and I've wanted to die since i was a teenager. Shit fucking sucks.
Even holocaust survivors call what we do the animals a holocaust. not THE holocaust, but A holocaust. It's truly disgusting. We kill 1-3T animal EVERY FUCKING YEAR. It's beyond fucked.
10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!. "I wish I did too..." I thought to my self, and I cried.
God, now I'm all teary having read it again.
it's actually "yes."
I REALLY hope MS crashes and burns. They're a shitstain company, and the shit Gates did as CEO was atrocious.
yeah, but it's microsoft. what's the longest you've gone without rebooting windows? a couple days? It stands to reason.
If you or I stole secret docs for furthering our businesses, we'd get sent to prison for life. But daddy teflon does it, and nothing happens. Fuck dumpy so hard (not literally, eww). i mean, robert hansson got sent to ADX for life for selling documents to I think the soviets(?) and was never to be released, but daddy teflon does it, and he gets praised by everyone. Fuck this stupid shit so fucking hard.
it's fine when daddy dumpy does it, but if one of those gross fucking dems did it, there'd be fucking hell to pay. Remember, every accusation is a confession. Fuck republicans so fucking hard.
haha. I have 32GB of RAM in my server, and even though I run a LOT of stuff, it rarely gets past 6 or 7GB used
It's not "processing". It's murder. Call it what it is.
I remember having to fuck around with master/slave configurations with drives. So many headaches were had trying to get them in the right order. Those were the days heh.
Honestly, I think VAD should be available for EVERYONE, not just if you're terminally ill. Why should i have to live this stupid shitty life because it will upset someone? I don't really even have anyone. It's just me and my cats. They would find a new home. But i have to live this shitty life because.... no one will be upset? Fuck this shit.
I have a myriad of mental health issues. Why can't i die because my life fucking sucks balls? Why should i have to live my life because, uhh.... no one... will be upset? I'm afraid to do it myself again, because i could make shit even fucking worse. Why can't I have VAD?