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I know it never could or would work, but every so often I wish there was some imaginary huge tract of land that nobody had owned before...and I guess somehow didn't affect the environment for all the assholes that want to play power games or pretend they could rule the world or just live lawlessly so they could be silo'ed off from society. Of course it would fall apart, innocent people would somehow end up in there. They'd probably end up attacking the rest of the world and I'm sure a myriad of other terrible problems. But man that'd be nice.

That's the best way I can describe it. Just neverending. Which sounds obvious but the actual experience of always having to parent, phew...

I'm not having the best day today. He's on summer break and hanging with me all day. We did okay yesterday but today it was just a domino of me feeling disappointed in myself that the house is always a mess and probably a level beyond that, like there's too much stuff to fit. But my own level of non-cleanliness has rubbed off on my kid cause there's no proper place to put his stuff. So I started cleaning then asked him to do some small tasks but I was feeling resentful for how he seems to just drop things wherever. I get it, you also got to teach them how to clean up and implement chores etc. and thus adds to the relentless grind of having to have these long term parenting plans but also try to be present in the moment and enjoy things and somehow have endless stores of patience. Today I definitely haven't. I've lost my shit and yelled and just let things domino out of control into a terrible grouchiness. I know some days suck and we get up and try again. Just wanted to get it out I guess. No advice needed. Just ranting to rant.

Got out to the SF MoMA yesterday and finally got to see the Yayoi Kusama installation. It's a trip and pretty awesome. I had the place to myself and got to inhabit this 96-year-old Japanese lady's mind for 90 seconds (they time the entries, you could go back though). It's on til August, so glad I went! Also one of my favorite exhibits is back on til August on the same floor, Ragnar Kjartansson's The Visitors.

Point of Infinity by Japanese artist Hiroshi Sugimoto was installed on the top of Yerba Buena Island in 2023. It also acts as a sun dial! Pretty cool. Never spent much time on Yerba Buena or Treasure Island, but went on a clear day and the views were killer. Cool little restaurant called Mer-Sea was nice to have lunch at. Bizarre seeing all the new tall apartment complexes being built. Right on top of where I saw Justice at Treasure Island Music Fest...

Whatup Yay Areaaaa. Been fiddling around on Lemmy and trying to understand the Fediverse. Feeling very old in the process, ha. I'm enjoying it for the most part. Though modern life has gotten me used to the firehose of content that comes at you on Reddit et al.

Super glad to call this place home. Life ain't normal but it does feel like we have this shell of insulation from immediate danger here. I mean, I'm not naive, a lot of the power and wealth is literally here fucking shit up but we've got a lot of good folks who care, so that's nice.

This year, I want to check out a Ballers game. Maybe road trip through the coastal redwoods. Focus on local action and community. Do garbage walks around the neighborhood. Whatcha getting up to? I mean in addition to surviving and whatnot. I wish you tasty tacos in your future.