lwhjp

joined 2 weeks ago
[–] lwhjp@piefed.blahaj.zone 2 points 32 minutes ago

I'm generally pretty calm and to-the-point, to the extent that I can come across as pretty cold at first. But if there's something that gets to me, whether it's happy / sad / infuriating or whatever, I can let it out and process it now, rather than bottling it up. That lets me appear as even more of an emotionless robot the rest of the time! Yay, I guess?

I have real trouble empathizing with people around me, even if I can read them on a conscious level. I guess that either makes me autistic or a sociopath.

[–] lwhjp@piefed.blahaj.zone 3 points 2 hours ago

Hugs <3 I hope he comes around soon.

When I come across stubbornly wrong people I try to remind myself that it's not my responsibility to correct their misapprehensions, even when they're about me.

It's great that he's talking to you, anyway. Best wishes to you and your fiancé(e?).

[–] lwhjp@piefed.blahaj.zone 2 points 1 day ago (1 children)
[–] lwhjp@piefed.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 day ago

Yeah, I pretty much gave up on makeup for the first six months or so, outside of a little mascara, for exactly the same reason.

Fortunately, estrogen is capable of wildly transforming your face, and makeup will suddenly start looking amazing once it starts accentuating feminine features!

[–] lwhjp@piefed.blahaj.zone 2 points 5 days ago (1 children)

Do you mean TeX (not GNU though)?

The related package METAFONT converges on e, as well.

[–] lwhjp@piefed.blahaj.zone 3 points 6 days ago (1 children)

I'm currently in the process of separating from my partner and it's bringing out the worst in me. Every request or angry "what do you expect me to do about XYZ?" triggers my "shut it down!" response and I end up being selfish and heartless. The house is in my name, I pay all the expenses and give my partner an allowance (she does work part time though), so I'm in a very strong position and I really don't want to abuse it. But OTOH I also can't just give in to every demand or we'd be (I'd be) bankrupt in months.

Ugh, my AuDHD is not making this easy.

OK, rant over. I'm not really looking for advice, just a hug <3

[–] lwhjp@piefed.blahaj.zone 18 points 1 week ago (1 children)

Yeah, it's scary, right? Your whole life has been turned inside out.

Your wife being supportive will make things so much easier as you figure out what you want to do going forward.

There's no rush. You can take things as slow as you need; do as little or as much as you feel comfortable with. It's also possible your feelings about what you want will change going forward. That's pretty normal.

It's also very normal for the pressure (do you know what I mean?) that caused your egg to crack to suddenly ease up, and make you start doubting yourself: whether you really want or deserve this. So be ready for that. Don't forget that you've felt this way all your life!

And welcome to the fold! We've all been through exactly where you are right now.

[–] lwhjp@piefed.blahaj.zone 8 points 1 week ago

Still waiting for approval for surgery here, but thank you so much as always for talking about your experiences. It's really helpful to know what I might have to face going forward.

It does sound like your brain is playing tricks. Hope things calm down soon <3

[–] lwhjp@piefed.blahaj.zone 8 points 1 week ago

Marriage went from "I guess we'll figure this out" to "who gets the house" rather quickly...

Oh well, maybe I can find someone new who's into women.

[–] lwhjp@piefed.blahaj.zone 4 points 1 week ago

Yeah you did! Awesome!

[–] lwhjp@piefed.blahaj.zone 4 points 1 week ago

I get to wear cozy sweaters and snuggle under blankets.

[–] lwhjp@piefed.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 week ago

Thanks, I use Shea Moisture too. That smoothie smells good enough to eat (tastes horrible though).

 

It's nice, but it's a pain to set so I mostly just have it in a ponytail. Plus it takes forever to grow out.

 

It'll put something on your chest, but it probably isn't hair.

(This is a joke: don't actually eat estradiol gel)

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