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I've been having pessimistic thoughts for a while because I'll be moving to the UK for studying, and after that somewhere in EU for settling with my partner with a job that I can stay there on. The thoughts are just the possibility of a revolution in UK and imperial core of EU, and I just want to know how can I talk through myself during these moments. How do you do it? I want to take part in organizing after I move, but paranoia really affects me on how this will not be good because I'll be an international student (not a citizen), and I have to somehow "be politically safe" to avoid being deported back. These are all paranoid thoughts, largely because I have psychosis too, but it still bothers me. Thank you for listening comrades <3

Comrades, I don't know how much collective action we can do from a petition, but it doesn't hurt sharing. Keep fighting and solidarity with Cuba!

Marxist analysis has made me realize my worth as a human, and I truly want to work for the revolution, and be a part. I want to liberate myself and everyone else, from oppression of the working class. But why bother. Just because it has helped me understand my value, doesn't make me any less depressed. I'm just so alienated. I'm moving to UK this Sept. for masters. Permanently away from my country. I don't want to settle in UK because of the queerphobia that's rampant there rn, but isn't it cowardly of me? To go for a place that is both safe for me and also a place where change is viable. I've seen comrades say its best to join an organization and make efforts in your home country itself but I'm moving out because I can't get the education and job I want from the country I'm in rn, and I can't see myself and the people I love being safe in UK too.

It is all so nihilistic. I fall prey to cynicism. I'm alienated. I see no hope. What if there is no point. What if bigotry will eventually rise up and take over, no matter what I do. I want to see myself belonging. And doing something for the sake of change and peace. My attention span is low too. I fail opening a resource I genuinely want to read and study. I just watch youtube. I just watch something else. I keep trying and trying, but I can't seem to find common ground between two entirely different worlds I see in the future.

I still survive. I still live. Being queer. Being mentally ill. Being inherently against the oppressive system. I continue to fight. I'll continue being kind. Making the environment around me peaceful for those I love, and for anyone wanting love. I can't give up.

I don't know what's the point of posting this. I hope everyone is doing well. Take care of yourself. Be kind. Keep fighting the war, both inside and out.

Being a graduate from 3 years of studying psych and with an active experience of mental illness, I can say that no amount of studying theory and doing therapy+ taking meds for years helped me realize the root of my problems and my worth as a human. more than Marxist analysis. I live to be a part of the revolution, and as long as psychotherapy reinforces the client to believe in themselves and to accept the realities of it is what it is, it will never achieve its job of liberating the person. There is a need for psychology to gain a Marxist perspective, more so from modern day leftists in the mental health field.

Resolving this issue in the uneducated worker is going to be important in reaching class-consciousness. This does not only happen amongst the workers or those who are uneducated. People who are right-wing or so-called centrists (including liberals) do adopt this position of "its because we're under capitalism", saying "Oh well", then continuing to live their lives. The worker is disillusioned with not having the freedom to live the lives they want. To have a work that they can feel secure under, that guarantees their healthcare and rights. This can only just lead to a limited number of options. The workers will play the role of labour aristocracy that the bourgeoisie want them to play. This is not mutually exclusive to nihilism. They can be brainwashed into the capitalistic dream of one day being able to be as rich as the millionaires, fully submitting into capitalism. They can adopt nihlism of there not being anything else they can do, in another way, also submitting to the current system. Capitalism is just how the world works, what else can I do?

Education is largely bourgeoisie sponsored which does mean the learners are trained to adopt a black and white thinking, they'll either not grow up learning an alternative system at all or will learn that the alternative systems that existed are apparently way worse than the current one so there's nothing else one can do.

All of this is nothing that doesn't exist in theory, its just that these conversations are useless, they don't contribute to anything but reinforcement of intentionally or unintentionally succumbing to capitalistic ideology.

The current young and coming generations are so used to seeing short-form video content across social media platforms, seeing manosphere videos and finance tech bros (ofcourse a huge overlap in those two) telling one that they can be like them. Toxic masculinity is something that is constantly hugely influencing how the teenagers at present grow up in. We can't tell these kids, if we do happen to stumble on them, not to listen to these youtube videos. Influencing someone at this age is a very complex process and using direct wordings won't work. Plus, what can we do if (and mostly, when) their parents themselves are not that educated, or in cases where the parents themselves are aspiring to be millionaires and not realizing the class-conflict that separates them from their dreams. This is mostly seen in the middle-class because the people in the videos themselves have become the rich. They can only keep their status, ofcourse, by continuing to exploit the lower classes.

Are the victims of these people really changeable? Coming back to the point of where workers go from here, I feel like there is a thin line, from where a worker is still disillusioned by their work and continues to work, being nihilistic, to where they become conscious of their class yet decide they chose to support the rich.

Ofcourse, its only by doing our best to educate class-consciousness onto the former can we continue to move on in our revolution. Domino effect will happen, but we have to actively play a part in it. Socialism being necessary and inevitable means the people play a part in making it that way

Bourgeoisie education is exploitation. Education does not have to be that way.

(This is not a theory related post, just my opinions on things)

I don't want to debate right-wingers online, its just a waste of time, but that's where they get most of the support from. its not that the right wingers have an established community online and they do hate speech, the worse thing I get sad about is the people they brainwash.

I'm still learning theory, but I also want to start educating myself on discourse and meta-discourse too, and pointing out the fallacies that they go for, why they go for it, why the uneducated believe it.

I know there are resources on this, I just wanted to know where I can start. Would linguistics be a field of study connected to this? I think it does make sense.

Forgive me if I'm just overthinking or thinking about nothing, I'm just wondering how educated should a worker be to be class conscious?

How I came to thinking was just pondering on people who are gullible to other people's opinions, and the ethics of ethical education? Maybe just nonsense meta stuff, but what exactly can people do, and how can we teach people to be self-aware enough to listen to what they truly believe in. Especially when it comes to adolescents who are surrounded by information dumping news sources and ideas from all sides, and any one source just has to be charismatic/bold enough for it to stick in someone's head for long term