hmm I will try and host a subplebbit on my minipc and see if anyone actually uses it, feel free to DM me to get the address of the subplebbit :)
I am male, does it affect more male or something?
No, I can't swim.
When I said "afraid" it doesn't mean that I can't touch or drink water. It just like when I try to bath I start thinking about how I can be drowned in water. so basically I am only afraid of water when it comes to bathing. also I can't wash my face because that triggers the same thing :(
Thank you so much for those kind words. ❤️❤️❤️
So the "delusion of reference" is I feel like everyone is looking at me (not in a good way but like judging kind of way). To explain this a bit more I want to share an observation made by my father. He knows that I have "delusion of reference". I was standing in his shop beside him and I didn't know he was observing me. After some time he told me that he noticed a thing, I was continuously checking if those customers were looking at me or not. He was right I was periodically looking at the customer because I thought they are looking at me.
However since when I started taking medicines I am not feeling that way as much as I used to. I still sometimes feels that people are looking at me but it's not that bad.
If you want to know more about my situation I have wrote almost everything in @schizophrenia@lemmy.ca community.
Thank you for reading this 😊
Persecution for me is like everyone has malicious motive and they are only being nice to me because they want something from me. I sometimes doubt my father hates me because he accidentally turned off the power switch of my server.
Now I know not everyone is against me they have better things to do with their lives but I still feel inside me that someone wants to do something to me.
I don't know if it even makes any sense to you but that's how I feel.
I am jealous of him 🥲
Yeah I am behind CGNAT so I guess I have to use either Tailscale or wireguard as other users also suggested.
Thank you for the reply!
It's not only not static It's firewalled too! I can't ping it from outside the network
tailscale is looking good I might try that
actually I was thinking about hosting my own fediverse service to own my data but I can't do that without a static public IP and domain name.
From your post I can say you have delusion of persecution which is a symptom of schizophrenia. You might need professional help if whatever you wrote here is actually how you feel.
Username checks out!