jaycifer

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[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 8 points 4 hours ago

All Summer in a Day isn’t necessarily scary, but reading it in 6th grade felt like a real eye opener on just how evil people can be, especially when they don’t even understand that they are.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 5 points 3 days ago (2 children)

Two weeks from now marks a year since my last drink. Last night I had a dream in which I had one and instantly felt regret knowing I was so close. But it was a dream, and I’m not drinking today.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 7 points 3 days ago (1 children)

Dad,

What was your favorite DnD character you played growing up?

What was your favorite video game?

What was the name of that 90’s hentai vhs you offered that I didn’t take?

What were you running from by drinking?

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 4 points 1 week ago

Oh gosh this reminds me of Edward Gettier and the damage he has done to the definition of knowledge.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 4 points 2 weeks ago

First time I’ve seen the word ignominy. That’s a good one!

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 3 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

What I believe Wildbus8979 is implying is trying to get the person they responded to to understand is “if cops are this bad outside the US, and US cops are worse, then yes US cops can be that bad.” Could they have clarified or spelled that out more? Sure. Could you have thought out your understanding of their words a little more than your initial reaction that they weren’t discussing the US? Sure.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 4 points 3 weeks ago

On the one hand, you’re right that the market for micro transaction laden multiplayer games is much larger than single player games. On the other hand, the market for people who want single player games is still very large. You showed that yourself mentioning Rockstar games and Harry Potter.

So while many publishers want a piece of that larger pie, every publisher trying for it just leads to over saturation and greater odds that a game will fail entirely. So there is still incentive for publishers to release large single player games even if the pie is smaller since there may be less competition making it easier to stand out. And what the article is saying is that, within that pie, one way to stand out is to avoid micro transactions. And since it’s discussing single player games specifically, I don’t see a lot of relevance for bringing up multiplayer games that exist in a different part of the gaming world.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 4 points 3 weeks ago

KCD2 is exactly like KCD1 with a few more years of development refining and in some cases expanding the rpg systems, a new map, and a continuation of the story. It feels the same, just a little nicer. In other words, it’s a perfect sequel.

The only fault I have with it is that Henry starts the game bad to mediocre at most things instead of useless, and that beginning stage is my favorite to go through and out of. But being a sequel I can excuse it pretty easily.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 8 points 1 month ago

I agree wholeheartedly. The book and movies are just vehicles for delivering nostalgic references, but while in the book 80% of those references were just listing off one thing after another, in the movie I could see and hear them, which makes it much better for that nostalgia.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 5 points 1 month ago (1 children)

What’s wrong with the visuals? I rewatched my DVD a few months ago and was surprised how good it looked. The field of ice structures crashing into each other in the last third kind of blew my mind in fact!

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 1 points 1 month ago

Starting and quitting have made my life better at different points, so I was curious. Edibles are super nice since there’s no throat irritation, but I do really enjoy the finer control over how high one gets that smoking gives. Vaping is a pretty good in-between.

[–] jaycifer@lemmy.world 1 points 1 month ago (2 children)

Starting or quitting the marijuana?

 

Yesterday was my birthday. A few years ago, when I was in a bad place mentally, I didn’t answer my dad’s phone call to wish me a happy birthday. He left a voicemail in which he sang the song to me and hoped I wasn’t just working at the pizza place and went out with friends.

That was about a year before the isolation of Covid times led him to start drinking vodka on the regular. He was never able to stop more than a few months at a time after that, even with rehab, therapy, and AA. It felt like a race between him figuring out how to quit and how long before his body couldn’t give him more chances to do so.

At the start of September, I moved him across the country to be closer to family while he recovered from another round of binge drinking and starving himself. I had quit hard liquor a couple months prior after getting too drunk too fast for comfort at my friend’s wedding. After this weekend I stopped drinking everything else.

At the end of September, he lost the race. He managed to call an ambulance when he realized this detox felt different, walked himself outside to meet them and only passed out when he was on the stretcher. A day later in a medically induced coma complications ended his brain’s faculties and he died. The only sign of what he had been thinking was the book he brought to the ambulance. The last marked page ended with a character scared after an encounter whispering to himself “still alive, still alive.”

I have not drank for 9 months now. I was headed that way before, but now I feel I can’t drink. To do so would disrespect what my dad went through. Yesterday was my birthday. I made plans with my friends for a full day, but before I left I listened to that voicemail for the first time since he left it for me, before I had reason to worry about him, when I was the one he worried about. I miss him so much. I hope he would be proud.

 

In college a few years ago, I decided to spend that time building up a foundation of beliefs and philosophy while my brain finished developing that would serve me for the rest of my life. This focus on self-improvement led to less mental energy spent on other people.

I think this has given some the impression that I’m a little narcissistic, but I’ve been pretty good at avoiding overconfidence. I’ve long considered myself self-absorbed but not self-centered, focussing on myself but only so I can be a better person than I’ve been.

Last Friday I realized that at some point I moved from one to the other. I stopped listening and started waiting to get conversations over with, only wondering what I was going to need to do for them. I stopped growing because I ran out out of things I had thought of that I had a reason to learn.

I don’t like being like this. I am trying to shift from a “what do I need to do?” attitude to a “what do others need that I can help with?” Any advice?

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