frankfurt_schoolgirl

I get this but I'm totally the opposite. In the morning I am happy and care free and thoughtful. Then the anxiety and doom slowly creeps in until Im a mess in the evening and I can't do anything but spiral.

This exact thing exist in my city. I have a bunch of pink / purple flannels that I am confident were once part of some trans guys "Im just a lesbian" coping phase.

Just kind of complaining here, but the one local trans support / meetup group here has been cancelled every time for the last month+. Apparently the org that runs it doesn't have enough facilitators. Which, like, I get that people are busy but it's two hours twice a month. And they've only been announcing the cancellation last minute on Facebook.

Last week, I showed up without seeing the announcement. I wasn't the only one either, there was a whole series of vaguely nervous looking queers who came up to try the locked door and the immediately slunk away. At this point Im not sure I need a support group that much. Like I have some irl trans friends and I'm fully out and all that. But some of them might have been really struggling and it's super shitty to just cancel the group like that.

I wish I was more confident, I would start my own group lol.

This is so real. Im honestly totally confused about my sexuality but I guess it doesn't matter and I can just do what feels right and hopefully I don't end up in a serious relationship and then realize I'm gay.

That's fair, I hate all cis people, commie or not 👍

Why is the NYT even publishing this garbage?

She's always been a lib. She just gets a lot of hate because most leftists only support trans people because they think we're politically reliable

This depends on where you live and whether or not it's an actual gender clinic or it's a stuff-christians-dont-liie clinic (planned parenthood). But they probably won't know that much about hrt, and probably have never prescribed SERMs for that purpose. I would research what drugs are available in your area (ie it's hard to get cypro in the US), what drugs you want, and what a reasonable dose is before you go. Yeah, it sucks that the doctor can't tell you what you need, but such is trans medicine.

I would love to read the guide! Also any good info on where you get the estradiol raws.

I absolutely do not tell doctors about my meds unless it's actually relevant. I doubt your dentist will have access to like gp medical records or anything.

I've been having a really hard time with this also. I'm out to my parents and they are thankfully really good about it these days, but I basically went with the "cancel" plan and no i don't have much of a relationship with the rest of the family. Idk we weren't super close before, maybe it doesn't matter. The hard thing is going to be next time there is a funeral...

I hope you go with whatever makes you most comfortable and safest.

This is kind of brainwormed and kind of weird, but idk maybe writing about it will help me work through things. So in like 2018-2021 I was more involved in local organizing than any other time. I lived in a pretty rural place, and the only org we had was DSA, so I joined DSA. I can't say that we were building the revolutionary vanguard or anything, but I do think that I did a lot of good work and met really amazing people. It was a really positive thing in my life for a while for both myself and others. I stopped all of that during COVID, mostly because my own life fell apart.

Almost 4 years later I'm doing a lot better, living in a new city with a new degree and new sex hormones. But I'm not involved in the local political scene at all. I don't think I would be useful if I joined an org. For one thing, most of the work we did involved in talking to people. I don't want to go around as a non-passing trans woman talking to strangers all day. I'm probably more shy and awkward than ever these days, even though I'm happier, because I honestly have no idea how I'm perceived. I don't think even liberal people are receptive to me.

But also I'm not sure that I care. Like the local left orgs are involved in a lot of causes. They talk about queer liberation during pride month, and the next month it's on the tenant rights or whatever. Maybe Im a bad person, but I don't care that much about the other stuff. I feel that my community, as in trans people, are under significant threat right, and I want to do everything I can to keep the people I care about safe. I don't have room in my life to worry about others besides them

I know that's not intersectional, and that some members of other marginalized groups are also trans, but Im not sure that matters because honestly I don't trust most of the activists I know to do anything for me if things got really bad. Like sure, they'll use my pronouns when they're not they/theming me, and sometimes they'll be extra friendly because my existence makes them feel diverse or whatever. But they wouldn't shelter me, or break the law for me, or die for me, like I would for the other trans women in my life.

Im sure if I joined all the local orgs I would meet based queer comrades who did have my back. But that's pretty much the only draw for me. And should I really join a group who allegedly wants to do serious work only to use it as a social club?