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Oh also I hate how it's impossible to find a group to like... do fitness with. That isn't full of creepy dudes. Or people who get mad at you for wanting to lose weight. It's not fat shame, I just really like lifting, and feel better when I have less weight on me!

It feels like it's just doomed to be a thing I do alone. ; _ ;

I can't afford to give them the benefit of the doubt, because I'm a woman, and for many of them, my existence is anathema.

Drugs!

But the more helpful answer is; I break it down into as many steps as possible in a document or on a piece of paper. Then, when looking at all that is overwhelming, I take the first few steps and put them on their own document. And then I plan a break after those.

And at the end of the break I take the next few.

Now you might be wondering- "flicker, what if I look at that list, and I still can't figure out where to start?"

And my answer is, if I made the list of steps and it still seems like too much, I try making a list for those steps.

But I also treat it like an addict does kicking their addiction.

This huge list might seem like a lot, but even if I can't do it all, even if I can't do much? I can do this one thing. I put on music to make it easier to tolerate, or TV in the background, or both, and resolve to do just one thing.

Because there's times when one thing is too many. So if I do one, I beat that record.

If I do the one thing, I might do another? But that's to decide after the one thing. Just doing one is a big deal. We will start there.

For a week in high school I worked in a call center as a telemarketer. Selling magazines. My best friend got suckered into it and, not knowing better, dragged me into it.

None of us got paid. They'd set up a call center in an office block, do like 4 hours of training, then make people cold call all day for two or three weeks. Then they'd shut down overnight, pull all the equipment, and move.

Evil operations. But it did give me a chance to see first hand (at like 15) that most people in those jobs were being exploited.

Oh God. I recoiled. Jesus.

I'm already sorry for what you had to deal with.

If you need tips for organizing your ADHD, I'm here to help!*

*while the stimulant medication is in effect

I feel capable and ready!! Thanks for checking on me. :)

I'd love to see more red panda ears.

I promised last week pics and recipe for the pink cake cupcakes.

Well I made them on Wednesday and they were terrible! I was following the recipe and realized... the recipe wasn't great! What a massive waste of ingredients!

I'll make it up to y'all, though. I'll do some tartlets or a different, better recipe and post it in the next month or so.

First day of summer classes is tomorrow!

First day at new job is, too!

So all I want is... survival!

People are sleeping on Little Witch Academia. If I had seen it as an early teen girl, I would've been obsessed.

I really loved Space Dandy, but if you're claiming it doesn't sexualize women, the entire restaurant of Boobies would like to have a word with you.

ETA: And we meet Meow doing upskirts.