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my mom have very smol breast, dad sister also same even after lactation soooo im have same? definitly i have same and im ok with it

roungly one year diffrence here 31.03.25 and 31.03.26
finally comfortable in my body

apowowwlwoowk im tired but it better than paying for shitty low quality new furtinure for 300k rub, materials is 4000rub and work is FREE (aaaaaawaaaaaaaa help)

finally loving myself again
dysphoria goes away

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a little worried that T go up or convert to DHT because of LH 2 mMe
maybe 3/4 of pump twice or just 1/2
0.75 mg twice give me too much 467 pg estradiol but LH 0
also i shouldnt take blood from hand what i use to apply oestrogel
but i should take bloodtest again after some time because it can be just flustration and there only month when i lowered the dose

in september 120 pg on 0.75 mg once fully suppressed HPG axis LH 0

overall i feel very good so is main marker that is just flustration and if is only elevated a little bit pre application isnt that bad because SHBG suppress free T and i should apply new dose roungly after 24 hours

my skin little bit more worse lately but i think because my skin is sensitive to skincare on estro

i mostly use only water to clean my face and woa skin soft and pretty (estrogen is magic) but if i use something my skin get worse
eg cleaning soap for face two diffrent and my pores isnt that clean
also used some GOOD cream and no is much worse feeling like my skin is oily, tonic are also useless

one year of normal mental health, no worrying aabout masculinization

hope second year will be even better

i looked a photos prehrt before HOLY SHIT hair structure changed and hair looks much more better now

also i have now much more healtly weight and no anorexia
my appetite is normal

i was 50kg, now im 66kg and it looks, ok all fat mostly go to hips and face is skinnier than 50kg on te$t..ne (im ~162 cm) also psych pills gained appetite a little bit but now i fixed that

everything is better, face much more girly and cute

im interesting in additionally suppressing HPG axis without super high E(can cause mood swings)

what other benefits of prog?

im worried about converting into DHT in liver via oral route(i dont like rectal method.....)

left is 7mo girl Mary, right is 8yo boy Tishka

i live in russia now

honestly i hate all govrenments, idea of bordering humans etc
nowhere i will be good all life, nowhere is good
everywhere fucking capitalists and shitty politics

and what if i move spending 5464653364 euros to good country and i dont will even have right for vote and right wing idiots win by shitty losungs in 15s videos from tiktok etc etc
the example is US

i dont care in which fucking country i live everywhere is bad ppl and good ppl and there no wrong nations

i looked up photo was pre hrt
holy im cute girl now vs depressed boy with long hair
estradiol really helps mental health more stronger than lot of psych meds but yes slowly but even after a month i feel much better
no fucking erections no fucking muscle grow in no fucking strong jaw muscles no no no no, fuck te$t0$ter0ne i hope i get more changes after second year of hrt

i got new bloodtest results with just 0.75 mg morning
estradiol 341 pg
SHBG 96 nmol
and interesting moment
LH 2.4, testostreone 2,9 nmol
usually LH is 0 and T is near zero
but seems like a just day to day variation especially with that SHBG free testosterone is near zero
also because of more circle shape of pituitary gland in MRI i checked more pituitary gland hormones and they are okay

also cool moment that i can use chosen name & gender in my lab so reference numbers are right