drbollocks

for anyone who wants to give proper advice or know our ages, yes, we are still quite young. i’m 18f, he’s 19.

i recently broke up with sam, my long-distance bf of a few years because he ghosted me. last night, he finally answered his phone and got to talk to me, that he’d love to still be friends but he was ghosting due to poor mental health.

he explained that he knew it was wrong and he should’ve done something other than ghosting his gf, and despite having mental health problems, he still indeed had feelings for me and would like to give it another try when he can be a better bf and is more mentally stable.

on one hand, i kind of hope he doesn’t lose feelings for me, as i think my feelings for him are still kinda there, but i also would support him with romance and such no matter what, and even if he doesn’t have feelings for anyone.

i also hope he gets better and don’t want to pressure him into a relationship he’s obviously not ready for. i think he should take his time. i also need a break due to being hurt, recently breaking up, and having been ghosted.

but i’m no longer upset that it happened as i got to talk to him, and would be willing to give it another try.

i guess this no longer makes me a lesbian romantically but biromantic :)

ni síin, ni khóm nái khúu si LGBT khéen Uá 😊

besides all that, she has an odd sense of humor but is really nice. not only this, but has been my friend since middle school, and i dated her in sixth grade. she has always been christian, but she’s practicing it more and feels like she has to “repent for her sins” and whatever.

she used to be a lesbian and then genderfluid but now she’s cishet and idk if she’ll understand what i’m going through, i also hope she didn’t decide this due to christianity.

and the gender identity and pronouns jokes feel weird to me as an enby and a lesbian 😓

will this end up actually bad for me like those superevangelicals?

it was around 1am and i was trying to sleep, and suddenly i thought “what if i get back with my ex from sixth grade?” (i’m still friends with her)

i started to get a warm and fuzzy feeling, so i was like “ruh oh raggy… i can’t get another crush again…”

she’s straight now, and my tired brain decided it was one of those things where i’d understand if she said no and continue to be her friend but would be like “yeah, why not” if we dated 🤷‍♀️

i thought that even if i was an immature ass at 12, i could be better and we could try again now.

however, when i woke up, my feelings completely vanished and i had no desire to date her at all.

ni ákhe ón okha sénkho san khí: ni nái núe ón sénkho, ni uíne ákhe en ón sénkho sú nún.

ni nái khúu núe en síkheén íu ón Uísi.

óa sénkho nún! (éla sénkho súno :) )

(the original chart where all the words were there seems to be lost, i had to redo some of them and a lot of them are unfinished, i will repost when i update it.)

Ni nái óno ón Uísi si Uá. Khía-núe khén nái saua sin íu ón Uísi.

Khía-núe khén uá si ae, san ian saua oé en áne khóna

ni ón óa 😊