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Let’s “slam” them with a rebuttal, as headlines like to write.

But it’s so harrrrrrrd! 😩

Asking me with my shit attention span to focus on something as boring as my breathing for ten fucking minutes? Even counting them doesn’t help! I tried keeping up with it for a month or two and every time I’d just space out into a long string of connected thoughts and didn’t feel any benefits.

I’ve been meaning to try it again, but even my therapist says it’s not for everyone/it may just not be for me, which would be a shame because it’s such an accessible mitigator if it worked.

This is me just venting out loud in response to this article. I’m aware I should probably get back into it, I’ve just been dragging my feet.

I couldn’t get into that show. It felt like another smug detective who leaves everyone around them incompetently befuddled and shaking their heads in disbelief and I just wasn’t in the mood for it at the time.

…it also made me miss The Mick.

Bad bot.

Sorry, I should clarify those were my own choices I was referring to. I’m the one who has a film degree and now works in tech support.

I meant to be empathizing more than making fun of op.

Yes it’s an arts degree, and yes the arts are in dire straits right now, but uhhh I at least feel fulfilled having tried to make the most of my passion— which I recognize doesn’t pay the bills, but made me feel validated and boosted my self-esteem, which I don’t think any job would’ve ever done for me nearly as much.

…so anyways, how’s that reset going, is your machine back up and running? Great. Thanks for calling tech support have a nice day.

“K.”

I really fucking hate how sensitive my body’s become to caffeine as I’ve gotten older; even just one cup of coffee puts me at what feels like the prologue to a panic attack, but without the panic attack (thanks Prozac?).

So with that and being sober, I am a fish out of water whenever I visit Germany. “So uh, do you have anything that’s non-caffeinated, non-alcoholic, and um, preferably diet? just water? yeah fine, that’s what I thought.”

I really hate this guy’s fucking face.

This never clicked for me for whatever reason and it’s been too long since I’ve seen it to recall why. Good photography and performances, but iirc the ending goes off on a bit much of a fever dream for my tastes at the time I saw it.

“How long will they be here.” lol

They’ll see themselves out, they’re just here for a trip to Disneyland.