confusedpuppy

A friend and I go to techno warehouse parties. She's early 30s and I'm late 30s. Although we don't go to clubs. That's a different vibe which isn't really for us.

There's a different crowd that goes to a club with bottle service and fancy dressed people and a warehouse party where music and art are more important than the clothes you wear.

As much as my autistic self hates loud noises, I also enjoy dancing to loud music and ignoring the flaming world for a night.

Not dedicating my entire life to work.

When I was 24 I had a random breakdown. Came home from a completely normal, unexciting day of work, got some food out for dinner and out of nowhere just collapsed and cried. Was life really just work and distractions until the next day?

I spent a year making changes to my life. From diet to perspectives until I found an opportunity to travel. I gathered all my money, even withdrawing from my stocks I had lost half my money from due to the 2008 recession, and fucked right off. I was able to backpack around and lived in a couple countries for a few years.

I had so many experiences that it felt like I grew as an individual exponentially faster compared to all my friends and family back home. I'm happy I chose to live life for myself but I also recognize that I was in a position to do something that most people are not able to do. That's why I don't talk about it too much unless there's some relevancy to the current the conversation.

Had I stayed and spent my entire life working, I'd be a miserable old man that worked my body until it was broken only to have retired tired and in pain. I would have been unable to actually enjoy the life I would have worked so hard towards.

Other people seem to be concerned for my retirement with so little money saved. I'm not worried. My retirement plan is extreme sports. Whatever happens, happens. I lived a life on my own terms.

I think I've worked in automation long enough to feel super uncomfortable with the idea of a tattoo print machine being anywhere near my body.

Even if I had a kill switch in hand, it still makes me uncomfortable. In general machines don't care about fleshy bits at all. If something happens, for example a sensor ages and becomes defective, the printer has the potential to cause serious harm.

I probably also hold a bit of bias, I prefer the imperfections of human, hand made art over digitized perfection from machines.

If you have interest in indigenous histories, I can recommend the YouTube channel Cogito. A lot of their earlier works give a nice overview of different indigenous cultures.

How potatoes saved the world and How aboriginal Australians made Australia are two videos that really help connect some of my thoughts and experiences on what I had learned about indigenous history, especially in regards to colonialism.

My perspectives come from the indigenous histories I have learned about through my life. It took many years, multiple countries and surprisingly some YouTube videos for me to get to this point.

Understanding how recent history has affected indigenous populations through colonialism and exploitation has been... Depressing.

I also tend to want to look outside of European history. As a not "white" person who grew up in a "white" country, I've had European history shoved into my life in every way possible. There's a broader world to learn from and appreciate.

I don't think clashes between different peoples can be avoided entirely, but the scale of environmental damage would never be as destructive as what we are witnessing today.

I quite my electrical apprenticeship. I didn't hate women enough. I didn't hate queer people enough. I didn't hate the younger people enough. I didn't hate myself enough. I hated authority too much. I hated social norms too much. I cared about my health too much. But worst of all... Like on the level of genocide bad... I rode a bike to work.

I think there are too many people on this planet. I see often people stating that this is not the case so this is often something people are vocal about.

Or maybe a more accurate way to briefly describe my point of view. I think there are too many people on this planet based on our current ways of consumption and destruction of resources. There may be an argument for a planet with over 8 billion people with the ability to provide food, shelter and all other aspects of life and social security that does not affect our environment so harshly and negatively but even then I just don't see it.

With so many people, we seem to have lost the ability to our right to roam. Something that I think is important for multiple reasons. People used to migrate for a number of reasons. Seasonal changes, disaster, allowing areas to regrow and repopulate in regards to land and wildlife, travelling to where wildlife is excessive, planned/controlled fires and so many other reasons.

When we settle into these large cities, we lose the ability to roam and ignore all the local environmental benefits of people roaming. The land has to be reshaped into providing for a constant, permanent settlement. The cities require outside resources to grow and maintain itself and it's much harder to see and understand the resource demand when we are no longer directly involved in maintaining the land. We are now focused on maintaining a city just for us humans.

I think this point of view is scary or intimidating to some people because it means giving up many modern conveniences. As if life can not be lived any other way.

I guess I also come from a point of view where I'd rather live a short dangerous life full of wonder compared to a long, sterile life of loneliness and resentful anger. Fuck borders, they are as made up as money, gender and religion. I want to roam and be free.

Ah yeah, I've heard of Proxmox but have never looked into it. From my experiences, HA is quite flexible so some questions are never that simple. Still worth all the effort though :)

How do you have HA set up? For example I currently have a Raspberry Pi 4 and installed a HomeAssistant Docker image.

Since I'm not using HA addons, I'm free to use any Docker image that supports Raspberry Pi's ARM architecture. I use a simple file server which is more than enough for my needs.

If you're using an HA setup where that's not possible, someone else may be able to suggest an HA addon that would fit your needs.

For the past month I've been writing a script to simplify transferring files and folders between my devices at home. All I have to do is change one feature, test it and it will be complete.

I've tried writing code before but never finished any project so this will be a nice accomplishment.

I'm thinking of putting it up on Codeberg to share. Maybe someone else might find my code/script useful. Even if it's just one other person who uses, it would be nice knowing my work made their life a little less tedious.

I'm not even gay and I feel this way. I have to go to queer parties just to meet some sane and normal people.

I can finally go outside for a nice peaceful walk or bike ride. No people, no suburban tanks, no noisy motors. That would be so nice