compostgoblin

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[–] compostgoblin@slrpnk.net 6 points 5 months ago* (last edited 5 months ago)

A cursory search tells me ‘no, not yet’

[–] compostgoblin@slrpnk.net 3 points 5 months ago (1 children)

I’m trans too. I’m still closeted, though, and now I’m getting scared that I’ll never be able to transition. They’re restricting gender-affirming care for minors right now, but it feels like a small step for them to ban it for adults too. And I have ADHD and take antidepressants- I’m starting to be genuinely worried that they might put me in a camp. What do we do? Where can we go that is safe?

[–] compostgoblin@slrpnk.net 91 points 5 months ago* (last edited 5 months ago) (13 children)

I am trying to ignore it. It’s like all the worst fears I could have coming true. The richest man in the world, a naked fascist and virulent transphobe, is gobbling up all the sensitive data the government has and is feeding it to AI so he can tear down the government and usher in techno-feudalism.

Meanwhile, I still have to go to work and pretend that everything is fine and normal, while the government is trying to define trans people out of existence, help Israel ethnically cleanse Palestine, and threaten every ally we’ve had.

I want to leave, but it’s extraordinarily difficult to uproot your life, and there’s no guarantee that finding a viable way to move elsewhere is going to happen.

So I’m just trying to imagine myself as a tiny individual, trying to hide from the brutality and eke out a good life with my little resources and community, and pray that whatever happens doesn’t happen to me directly.

Maybe I should be out protesting - I feel like I should - but there isn’t a mass movement right now, and there’s no leverage in government to stop them. So things are feeling pretty bleak right now.

[–] compostgoblin@slrpnk.net 12 points 5 months ago (2 children)

Ah yes, the superhuman ability to make my living space a mess

[–] compostgoblin@slrpnk.net 19 points 5 months ago (1 children)

I am very aware. What’s fun and good, though, is my complete inability to do anything about it.

[–] compostgoblin@slrpnk.net 3 points 5 months ago

Ah, then the answer is definitely smoking weed for me. It’s not for everyone, and I have no judgement for those that don’t partake. But it is really much less harmful than most people are led to believe, and I find that joint of a good strain at the end of a long day is a great way to relax and have a nice chill evening.

[–] compostgoblin@slrpnk.net 7 points 5 months ago (2 children)

I smoke a lot of weed, so I guess that. But I also don’t really believe in feeling guilty for pursuing pleasure - I spent too long doing that as a Catholic, and I have no desire to go back.

[–] compostgoblin@slrpnk.net 14 points 5 months ago (2 children)

Oh yeah, that was not my intention at all! If it would be better to take the post down, I will take it down, no problem

[–] compostgoblin@slrpnk.net 7 points 5 months ago

If you don’t mind my asking, where did you go and how was the process? I haven’t left yet, but I think it’s well past time I had a plan. I have a passport and all my documents have the same (although not my preferred) gender markers. So my current thought would be to look for a remote work job and then try for a digital nomad visa somewhere in the EU.

[–] compostgoblin@slrpnk.net 2 points 5 months ago (2 children)

I’ll echo the other reply - red states will not have them, blue and some purple states will. I suspect we will continue to have the facade of democracy for a while, and may see the Democrats take the House and maybe the Senate in 2026.

The real question is, if there are elections in 2028, and the Republicans lose, will there be a transfer of power? I don’t have a good feeling about the answer, but only time will tell. Four years is a long time for an obese old man with a very stressful job to live, and I don’t think there is anyone who can easily take over Trump’s cult of personality and take the reins of the fascist movement.

[–] compostgoblin@slrpnk.net 4 points 5 months ago (1 children)

Weirdo crypto bros?

[–] compostgoblin@slrpnk.net 2 points 5 months ago* (last edited 5 months ago) (1 children)

Thank you! <3

And your comment is prescient! Earlier today, in my infinite wisdom, I forgot that my YouTube account is logged into our TV, and my wife saw that I had been watching Abigail Thorn’s coming out video. I hadn’t planned on having this particular conversation with her for a little while longer until I felt like I had my thoughts collected better, but we ended up having a very emotional, but I think ultimately good, conversation about where I am with my gender identity and how I want to express it.

She’s very understandably a little overwhelmed and feels like it’s coming on all of a sudden, but she was also very reassuring that she isn’t going anywhere and will support me. I think there are certainly going to be some things that aren’t easy over the course of my transition, but we’re both committed to each other and staying open and communicative. We may do some couples counseling, and go to some support groups for trans people and their spouses, as things progress.

Point well taken though, I will do my best to stay as open and honest as possible throughout!

 
 
 
 
 
 

I’ve already mailed in my ballot, and I volunteered to be a poll worker (though they haven’t gotten in touch). With a week (maybe two) to go before we get the result, I feel caught in a limbo. It feels more important to me to be copying my important documents and organizing go-bags to be ready for a crisis than it does to do anything at work. I also recognize that that is probably a reaction to stress and anxiety and isn’t helping me. That said, I’m part of many groups that the right-wing hates and is openly threatening, so feeling unsafe doesn’t feel unreasonable either.

How are you all holding up out there? And tips for me to deal with this better?

 
 
 
 
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