canadianchik

LOL I’m sorry, my brain was scattered typing this all out. I think I’m just confused on what I want

I mean yea tbh his instagram popped up and im like the fuck? Cuz I asked awhile ago and he lied and said he didn’t have. Personally I couldn’t care less about having his Instagram, but why lie lol. I told him like he doesn’t have to lie or anything because I don’t care and he said yeah ok I don’t wanna give u it get the hint lolololol. Maybe a bit toxic but the sex is good so part of me don’t care lol. And that’s true, I just worry about like STDs and stuff. I asked him tho if he’s doing anything with anyone else but he said no. But it’s hard to believe him now 😂

can I send u a dm?

I guess not always yeah. But it’s always lingering and every time it gets “better” it kinda plummets again. But I know this will pass and better things will come. It feels nice to talk to everyone on here 🩷

;/ im sorry to hear that. and yea, DM it! please.

I know time will heal but fuck… that video is pretty emotional, wonder what she is/went through. i just hate how heavy my heart feels, i hate always being in pain and being sad. I just want it all to end.

Yes! Vent vent vent! Vent to me, message me. I’m here. Whichever jackass took ur wheels will get karma. U know how I think of these situations… like “god let that happen because maybe if I had been able to ride my bike something bad could’ve happened”.. kind of like traffic too… god protecting us from a crash that could’ve happened.. but still I’d be mad. Are you able to get a rope or bigger lock and lock then around your wheels in the future. I’ve never heard of someone stealing bike tires, that’s so lame

I feel angry a bit now. I cried so much yesterday when I was out for my walk but now anger is here. Obviously I’m sad too but part of me is so mad that I spent 6 months now for something to not work or to be given up on so easily. It’s so upsetting. I hate that I did it but I reread me and his messages and seeing how much I tried to make things work, for two months, be trying to fix our relationship…pathetic. I got nothing bad. At one point he was just telling me that he felt like he was always telling me how special and beautiful I am and that I didn’t let it go through. What the fuck? But a few days ago he said he should’ve been more appreciative. He’s saying these now because he realizes now when we aren’t talking that I tried so hard and he didn’t care as much as I did.

That’s the part that hurts. The hardest pill to swallow for me is that. I have only known him since the end of November but I swear it feels like I’ve known him for years. This hurts me so much because I rarely feel like this with people. This urge inside me to text him is crazy. I hate that me and him didn’t talk about it in purpose, it makes my blood boil a little bit.

I wouldn’t rush into another relationship tbh.. I wouldn’t be able to.. would just hanging out with someone worsen things? I’m stressing because part of me still feels like I’m cheating and I’ve developed this guilty conscience after what happened between him and I. a guy wants to go on a walk with me in nature, I told him I’m going through this and he said take ur time and he gets it but part of me thinks maybe going out will take my mind off of it but another part of me thinks that maybe it will just make me miss him more.

Please, more details

I know :/

Have one, he helps a lot🥹