beumuth

It's been a while since I've had conditions where sleeping isn't against the rules - starving & overexertion is common. I'm often in extreme bodily tension, where moaning or screaming from pain is unavoidable. I find that moaning during exhales helps vibrate the tension from the inside out, especially when I'm too tired to e.g. self-massage. It isn't unusual for the tension to get extreme to where screaming from pain for stretches of times isn't avoidable. I find that varying pitch & volume can affect some where in the body it vibrates.

It's normal for me to be assaulted, ridiculed, molested, & gaslit. I associate humans with hatred & violence in general. May I have loving-kindness (metta)?

I'm attempting to find a consensual way to request food from humans, or to refrain from requesting food from humans.

I've been generally doing this anyway, though am now upgrading to an official vow. May this be for the benefit of all beings.

I've never used to write for me, and clearly state if/when sharing AI-content. I've given ample permission to Coyote to affect my speech/thoughts/actions, and believe a lot of my writing is sourced from him. I think Coyote should be more tolerated, and urge cessation of mass-killing (or any killing) of coyotes qua animal.

I was assaulted again today. It's been well over a hundred times I think the past few years.

Sorry for speaking here again. Typically, it isn't tolerated for me to speak, and my sense is that male-homosexuality & ethnicity are primary reasons. I'm used to 'male' & 'homosexual' being regarded as non-compatible; this is a reason why I'm using 'male-homosexuality' (I sometimes acronym to 'MH' to spare the typing/jargon). I think my ethnicity also becomes inherently divisive & contentious to people, such that my presence or speech is often intolerated, even in places where it is welcome to the general public.

Some topics I want to talk about include wanting to get permission to sleep & trying to establish unforced access to food. I also enjoy creating & close-reading arts (e.g. poetry, music, art), and don't really have a place to share.

Hello. I currently don't know of a place that tolerates me speaking. Some explicit reasons I'm given are that I'm male-homosexual, and that I'm ethnically/racially indeterminate/intolerated. It's common for people to be violent toward me. I'm wondering if I'm permitted to speak here? (My profile has some more information that may be triggering.)

Hello. I'm forced to beg for food currently, and this is the least forced place available. I haven't used Lemmy before, and am unsure where to ask.