- wearing a jacket even in 80°F weather
- being disappointed when my accidental assignment to the girls' locker room was "corrected"
- disordered eating to get rid of belly fat
- fantasizing about being a woman
- obsessing over female D&D characters
I could probably hunt down a few more signs, but they weren't obvious at the time, even if I felt guilty about them
When I say obsessed, I mean obsessed. I spent way too much time thinking about their lives and their history especially when compared to how much thought I put into myself. It played into my daydreams and fantasies.