Zero22xx

ITT: people acting like absolute smug assholes to anyone who anyone that knows the actual meaning of basic words but not how politicians have twisted that word in select countries. Seriously, anyone that wants to complain about American exceptionalism needs to come to this thread and see these dickheads being snarky and shitting on people for not being intimately familiar with their country's inner workings. I bet that if I blocked certain people from this thread, my over all Lemmy experience would improve dramatically.

Thank you again, it definitely does help to let it out sometimes. And it's nice to feel like you have a bit of community on here, as opposed to Reddit where you're just another part of the crowd. I barely used to even look at people's usernames on Reddit, this dynamic here on Lemmy where you see the same people regularly is new to me. At first I didn't like it but it's actually kinda cool.

Thank you, awesome person in my phone. It already made me smile early today getting this response, so hopefully today is better than yesterday. Basically the TL;DR is life is shit, everything to make it not shit costs more and more money, and money is scarce and hard to come by and hard to save or do anything worthwhile with when you're just getting little bits of relief at a time.

But despite the downward spiral I was on yesterday, I do have half a plan of starving and neglecting myself a bit so that I can save up for that teaching English course. I'd love to actually go into programming because there's probably better money in it but at this point, my brain is too stressed and frazzled for it. So first I need some basic income so that I can try the programming thing when I'm a little more comfortable and less worried about everything.

Not just MAGAs, this is on the whole world. I feel like they've been talking about and warning about global warming for all 39 years of my life now and most of these clown nations still have vague targets set for 2030, 2040 etc. Head clown Trump might be helping speed it up now but no one has approached this with any particular urgency. Our world leaders are just as effective at fighting climate change as they've been fighting misinformation on Twitter and Facebook.

I personally think that if there is a future where we write history books, our current crop of leaders in the world today are going to go down as the absolute worst and most useless sacks of shit, that sold out their people to both fascism and climate change.

Just want to say, I was trying to answer your question without offloading too much, and I'm sorry that I kinda did. We all have problems and I don't want to make mine yours or anyone else's. I'm just feeling sorry for myself right now, that's all. And I'll probably magically feel better when I get my hands on some herb again. Tbh I'm thinking of deleting my first response because it's a bit much. Thank you for being kind and asking tho.

These days it's 100% how I cope because it's the only place where I can really be me and feel like I actually have friends or at the very least, community. My life in the real world is pretty fucked these days. Mostly due to (un)employment and (lack of) money aka independence and happiness.

I tried going through the public healthcare system to see someone and it was a complete waste of time and made me feel stupid and kinda humiliated for even trying. To explain that would require an essay. So I'd like to get some help but just like anything else that improves one's life, money money money.

Edit: thanks for the kind words.

I didn't even know that "non-binary" was a thing until later in life. I knew that I wasn't like the boys but we wore uniforms and had to have gender specific haircuts and were all seperated and categorised, so it's not like I was spending all my time with the girls either. I just thought I was a weirdo that hated sports and stupid immature behaviour, who preferred reading fantasy and sci-fi books alone.

And I still didn't even know that it was a thing for years after school. We're kinda progressive in my country but probably still at least 10 years behind the first world in that regard. So it's something that I was just never exposed to. When I finally did sit down and do some homework about it, it felt like I had finally found the picture to use as reference to put the puzzle of my life together, if that makes sense. Before that, I was just building the puzzle blind and not doing a very good job at it. So many things in my life would've made more sense or been easier (and I would've made better decisions along the way too) if I had only known who I was.

This meme might've done the trick for me lol. Still gonna go with 16 though because that's the age I started sneaking out on weekends to go to the alternative club. I think that if I had a clue back then and wasn't still in denial, I would've done everything better, especially relationships with people.

It's all good lol. I've definitely come across the MAGA types that like to go on about how they were 'nationalist socialists', emphasis on the socialist part. But they were about as socialist as North Korea is democratic. So it's fair to make that assumption these days because we're living in times of idiocracy. So next time I make a comment like that I'll try to be clearer.

Ah maybe I could've worded that better. I wasn't trying to say that the nazis were some strange breed of leftist. I was saying that a leftist government would allow different schools of thought to exist whether they're left wing or not, with the exception of nazism.

If it's any consolation, I can see thumbnails and images just fine in your posts using the Eternity app. Wouldn't recommend the app though as it's got a few issues and hasn't been updated in almost a year. The only reason I'm still typing from it as we currently speak is extreme laziness.

I'm already banned lol, I just haven't deleted and closed shop yet. And believe it or not, the comment that got me banned was me shitting on the manosphere, in a subreddit that was literally meant for shitting on misogyny.