As far as my life in the real world that I have to live goes: bitterly disappointed. As far as my sense of identity and beliefs go, happy. But also disappointed that I only got to this point when it basically seems like it's too late.
I just hope that in this hypothetical situation where my 15 year old self gets a glimpse of me now, that it causes my 15 year old self to do things differently and have a great life in a parallel universe.
Haha same. Marmite is one of my hated foods. Not too keen on Bovril either, they both seem the same to me. I think it might be the smell and look of the stuff that puts me off.
I wish Reddit had a way to sort by 'worst of all time' but going by my 'controversial' comments, it's either something feminist or it's for having an opinion in SquaredCircle, the pro wrestling sub.
The SquaredCircle community here is still nice because there's not a lot of people yet but on Reddit, the biggest sin that you can commit is having an not mainstream opinion about something.
Edit: on a side note, I really should delete my Reddit account now.
Ugh, I actually get angry thinking of the couple of times I ruined a good friendship thanks to friends and people around me pulling the "oooh, you two liiike each other" bullshit and convincing me to make a move against my better judgement.
Either an egg meme or a neurodivergence meme. Or both in one. Preferably with the word 'non-binary' in it so that I'm exposed to that concept young. Then hopefully I'd get a clue and live my best life before that life turns into a dark tunnel where the only light ahead is an oncoming train.
Tempted to send it to my 5 year old self before starting primary school. But I mean, 5 year old me wouldn't get it. I could send it to 12 year old me before high school but then I'd still get sent to boarding school in a religious conservative shit hole town and probably feel even more trapped there armed with knowledge of who I really am.
So I'm gonna send to my 16 year old self. Second to last year of school when I was already done with this shit and just before starting my adult life.
It's all good, it's just me right now. It's good to have standards around here and I do appreciate the explanation instead of an aggressive removal, so you're already a good kind of moderator in my books. And I apologize for the tone of my response, as I say, it's just me right now.
Oh. Had no idea where this was from and probably downloaded it from Reddit's version of this community a year or two ago. Oh well, so much for trying.
Feeling oddly down and defeated these last two days. And it seems to be reaching a peak right now. Getting irrational thoughts like feeling like I should just delete Lemmy and everything else and complete the process of giving up on life. Finding some train tracks to lie on somewhere or something. Everything is shit, my life has become a literal figurative dumpster fire with no way out and nothing much to live for, and even escaping into this online double life where I can at least speak and be my truth is feeling like a pointless waste of time right now.
Not expecting anyone to respond, or even read. Not sure why I'm even posting this, maybe letting it out will somehow make me feel better again. I'm just so tired that I feel like going to sleep and never waking up again.
Not me but a guy I knew used to have peanut butter and mayonnaise sandwiches. I tried a bite and it honestly wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Not the kind of thing I'd make for myself though.