Society: You can be anything you want to be. Live life to the fullest!
Me: transes my gender to experience both pubertys
Society: STOP IT! NOT LIKE THAT!
Me: 
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ATTENTION: Skirt go spinny. That is all.
I bought a couple cute trans pride enamel pins to put in my hat. Also got a couple of demi/ace pride pins for my hubby as a surprise. I got my meds today as well. 
Yeah looking at that site, 10mg IM weekly is a pretty large dose.
Doing voice lessons while driving around for work is like being paid to trans my gender.
So what's a normal dose for Estradiol Valerate? I feel like they gave me a pretty high dose? Either way letsssss gooooooooooo! I have to wait until tomorrow to get it but I'm already so excited.
It really was a lot of fun. Once the anxiety subsided and I could actually enjoy myself. It was the first time I've been asked pronouns and she/her'd in person which was so nice. I was so awkward when they asked hahahaha. "Uh she/her I guess?" 
It really was an amazing little clinic. The Dr was sooooo nice too. The entire staff was friendly and affirming as well.
It was definitely for privacy and anonymity. The clinic is in a very conservative area in a very conservative Midwestern state. I live in a slightly less conservative Midwestern state but it's still not great. I could have tried to go somewhere locally, and I'm sure there is a GP that would prescribe hrt. But this clinic was rec'd by my therapist and I'm so glad I waited. First time I've been asked pronouns and she/her'd in person. 
So my visit went great. That clinic is incredible and the Dr was amazing. It was overwhelmingly queer hahaha. Several different pride flags were hug up, and the fence outside was painted in pride colors.
They also run a tight ship. Which was great since I was extremely anxious. I had to be buzzed in, they had a strict no phones out in the lobby policy, and I'm guessing the appointments are staggered because I didn't see any other patient there. Though I could hear other patients come and go from other exam rooms. They even had a separate, secluded parking area and entrance from the rest of the medical building complex thing they are attached too.
I did the usual front counter check in stuff, then I was immediately taken to an exam room to wait. All of the staff introduced themselves with pronouns, and they were so nice. All in all 10/10 worth the wait.
catastrophizing about work
I'm really stressed about my job. I like my job, and I like the work. But I'm worried about the future when it becomes hard to ignore my transition. Its not a big place, there is only 15 of us. More than half are boomers who will be retiring in the next few years. Most of the rest of my coworkers are your standard variety Gen x Cartman wannabe types. But a few are really cool and probably won't be a problem. Both my foreman and the big boss really like me. I'm super productive compared to the boomers and I know things no one else does.But the work culture is shitty blue collar in a shitty Midwestern state. 80% of the work I do, I am in the field and alone for, but I do have to spend time at the shop. The city where work is located has some really strong anti-discrimination laws and they can't just fire me. Especially since I've had nothing but exemplary reviews every 6 months for the last 3 years. I'm outside of my apprenticeship, I'm outside of any probationary time.
I guess I really don't want to be a target and I really don't want to get fired. Sure, I'm positive I'd win the lawsuit if I got fired but still I am stressed about the potential stress of it.