Tonava

It's a stress reaction instinct thing if someone reading this didn't know already. Something like "they're not going to survive anyway, better use the resources myself to be able to escape and make more". Many mammals kill their own young when stressed, I theoretize it could be somewhat behind post-partum depression as well since that can create strong feelings about how you have to kill your baby

I don't see a problem with being public and having limiting rules - it's perfectly fine for women or minority groups to have their own spaces - but never before have I seen such an odd approach to moderating. I too tumbled on one of their threads from ALL and it felt like at least third of the comments there was responded with, paraphrasing, "please never post again". If every discussion reaching ALL gets like that, I'd imagine it would be easier to figure out some other solution, since it takes such insane amount of effort to go through so many comments and probably profiles and posting history to know who to reply that to, from moderating perspective. Or are they just saying that to everyone? Or everyone not subbed?? I doubt that many people getting answered with "please never post again" would want to join even if they did qualify...

It's just... I don't understand the logistics of all that

While I would say that the language barrier is squing things a little

To go on a tangent from this; this is literally the problem I'm constantly struggling with tech stuff. I am not fully illiterate in things (I've build my desktop, I've booted from USB, I've done quite interesting things with php etc. etc. small stuff) but I'm also not on a "Lemmy level", for example never installed or used Linux, I don't know Rust, nor do I understand a lot of the talks here.

But; English is my second language, and I've never had any formal schooling in IT. There are a lot of tech words that do not translate literally into my native language. So if I want to understand something, searching for things is an absolute nightmare. I often don't know the English term, and I usually don't know the proper tech term for it in my native language either. Translating doesn't help since translators don't understand the terminology but will translate literally, which again, doesn't help in either direction. So I'm left guessing and trying to piece things together based on vague descriptions by people who understand what they're talking about and expect the reader to understand as well.

On top of that the FUCKING SEO has made everything so much worse since trying to search anything with the word "optimizing" will only yield completely irrelevant things about SEO. I hate it I hate I hate it

I got autism diagnosis as an adult mostly because of my long struggle with depression and physical health problems. Having the official diagnosis helps when interacting with health care; it is a confirmation that my needs differ from a neurotypical and they have to act accordingly. Now I can point to the diagnosis whenever needed, so they don't for example try to force stuff on me that just won't work (like group therapy).

Also good to remember the only time you have is right now; get that tattoo or start hrt. Who knows if tomorrow ever comes

I went insane already in the early 2000s, when I realised nobody gave a shit about climate change and ecological destruction and nothing I could say or do made people understand or care. I had a good chuckle when the whole Greta-thing happened and suddenly more people cared, even though we've known this is happening for decades now. Too little, too late. There's always war and genocide going, now we just know it's happening in real time. Knowing changes nothing, we don't learn from history, too few care and those who do get in power too rarely for any lasting change to happen.

I was about to kill myself for the first time in 2013 and honestly I should just have done it, it's the decision I now regret the most in my life. I already died that day anyway, I have just been sort of lingering remnant after that, barely a person anymore. At least my parents could have had a decade to grieve me, now I've just dragged more people to care about me and will hurt them as well with my death. My suffering has just gotten worse and worse together with my physical and mental health; sometimes thing not only don't get better, but just get worse. I don't even know how I'm still here, probably just out of spite and lack of access to handguns. Eventually I'll get to see what will manage to end me first, my body or my mind, I don't even know which one is leading the race.

To conclude my insane and personal rant: not everyone can get a happy ending. Enjoy and do good if you still can

Befriending wild animals on their terms is awesome, no matter are they slugs, deer or birds. I've been bribing the neighbourhood corvids for about three years now, and gotten a few friends.

Oh for sure, it's not fruitful at all. But it is understandably human nonetheless, I doubt anyone being taken by the fascists care much about the difference between people who voted for them to be able to do it and those who didn't vote to prevent it

Yeah those are fucking illegal where I live, as are prong collars and crating for long periods of time. All of those are animal abuse, and negative re-inforcement is a terrible way to train any animal anyway (humans included)

Hey, finally one without any downsides!

I get it. Never felt really welcome in those spaces, even though I'm trans and very much on the left as well.

I do lucid dreaming all the time, though it has slowly changed form as I grow older. I've also hear it can be trained, but I learned it from a nightmare as a kid and don't really know anything about the training. I just got super angry and went against the intended dream (I was supposed to be eaten) and by doing that I suddenly realized I could do anything. After that I've kinda been on the driver's seat when needed, and somehow always have the manuscript of the dream and the knowledge I'm invincible.

I usually go with the intended dream for unknown reasons even if it's uncomfortable and annoying normal day situations, but when the dreams get too bad or boring I start to "cheat" and change things. One of my favorites has always been starting to float around in kinda sideways movement, with the wind lifting me. I like flying too, but it's much harder to achieve and requires more effort to keep the wind pushing me upwards, usually I have to do several jumps and use stuff like buildings to get enough wind under me.

These days I don't always need to even force the changes where as younger I had to really really struggle to force it to happen, now the dreams kinda naturally shift before me? Kinda like my subconscious has somehow become more agreeable and doesn't try to kill me as much - I don't know why though, I've not been doing any better mentally.