Happy birthday!!! I just got through a week of a chickpea curry. I wouldn’t recommend it lol
Had to go out to Pakey at lunch to grab some more PJ pants and got to see a train running on the new sky rail, thats pretty cool. Supposed to open next week apparently, wonder if it'll make much difference. The boomgates going has gotta make a ton of difference if you live in the area, even just visiting they shit me up the wall!
Food helped me heaps. Even when I didnt feel like eating a big healthy meal would give me an hour or so worth of energy back. Lemonade icypoles were clutch too for the sore throat.
She may not have intended anything sus by it, it may have been a conciliatory gesture. But I understand the concern during a rough patch. It might put your mind at ease to actively prevent any surprises until you know what the plan is.
Yeah I hope so. I cant believe she is the type to be that manipulative. I honestly have a hard time believe ANYONE could do that to another person. Sure, you hear stories, but Ive never heard of it happening to someone I know.
I might talk to her tonight and just get a clearer picture of her expectations re having another kid. I'm pretty sure she'll say "lets weather the current storm and see where things land" and that'll put my mind at ease.
I did see that injectable contraception for dudes. I didnt know it was so close!
yeah, that'd... that'd be where I stand at the moment. Trouble is I think my say in the situation ended when the troops were deployed.
LOL, thank you I needed a laugh! After 2.5 years of IVF and $30k spent on the first, I'd say if I accidentally invaded a country then its gonna be flying my flag for the next 9 months like it or not.
Not a bad idea!
Blew my friggin socks off. I was in my early 20s and felt like I had the energy of an 16 year old again, was friggin incredible. Now its barely a bump start, and tea doesnt even take away the low grade fog.
I think you’re over thinking this.
Yeah, I think maybe my anxiety is taking me for a ride.
Also when your partner says “I don’t really like putting the rain coat on” it’s kind of a turn off. Tough. We don’t really want to feel it either but it is what it is.
I feel like I should clarify so I don't sound like a total asshole here: the rain coat was my idea. the REQUIREMENT was my idea. I was happy to take responsibility cause it left us in a position to start trying when we decided to. Originally the plan to start trying soon. I'm happy to take responsibility for cleaning up my mess so to speak, and I'll be more than happy to go get the snip the second we decide we're done. It was certainly not a "I hate this and wish you didn't force me into it". More a tongue in cheek "Why did I think this was a good idea?". hence the surprise when she said "well, dont then!"
at a footy game I think
So I might've fucked up last night. There's a reoccurring theme of me just making the dumbest freaking mistakes these last couple of weeks, i dunno whats wrong with me. I'll throw in a NSFW and spoiler for the mistake part. Heads up dont read this one at work.
So the mrs and I had a bit of a heart to heart last night, kiddo went down early enough that we weren't both too stuffed to talk.
i had a bit of a breakdown, said some tough stuff that was hard to say she gave me a big hug, after a few minute I told her we had to stop cause I knew what was gonna happen (not that I didn't want to, just didn't wanna cheapen the moment with the pants off dance, ya know).
Anyway, this next part is super graphic. I'll tidy up the language as much as possible but feel free to skip.
NSFW spoiler here
She says she doesn't mind. So we go to bed. I.... uhhh, "suit up for the occasion" as is required at the moment.
We get going, and I express my dissatisfaction with the "armour" I was "wearing" . She says I dont have to if I dont want to.
I say "are you sure? isnt there a risk?" She says "I'm not worried". so knowing full well it was a mistake, but not having the blood to operate my brain properly... I take it off.
And this is where I cant help but feel a bit... baited? I dunno. Let me clear it takes 2 to tango, I'm the one that took "it" off. Its 100% on me. But she did EVERY trick in the book to make sure I "arrived". It felt like it was a competition to make sure the finale happened. Ultimately, I... uhhh, "deployed the troops elsewhere", at least 99% sure I did in time. Given we needed IVF the first time I'm not SUPER worried. It was great to reconnect, been a while since that happened, but its left me with more questions that answers.
Was she actually trying to make sure i "deployed the expeditionary forces in the target country"? Why now? Why do we suddenly not care now? Was I getting used? Or was she trying to reconnect like i was? Why the F did I take the risk? Am I really not that smart? or just super into potentially self sabotaging? Is this all actually a big deal? or is my anxiety just taking me for a fucking ride?
EDIT: Maybe this would have been more appropriate on a Relationship advice sub, apologies.
Well me and the kid like to rip ass with the occasional input from the dogs. So to answer your question my house fucking stinks.