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You're welcome! I'd say give it a shot, it sounds like you could definitely use someone to talk to.

And oh yeah, health anxiety can be extremely scary and overwhelming, that's valid. But the worst part is not knowing what it is. Our minds are so powerful, we're able to convince ourselves that we have a terminal illness. I've fucking done it, just last year. I thought I absolutely 100% had colon cancer. But it was a hernia, a much less severe issue. I was shaking when I felt my stomach, obsessed over it every day, and started thinking about writing a will, lmao. For 3 months, I felt this way.

I made an appointment to go to the doctor to get this looked at, and it set my mind so much at ease. It's expensive af, and I still owe those medical bills, but at least I know what I'm dealing with.

Try to pull back and take baby steps to figuring out what you should do to take care of yourself. You can do this, you'll get through this.

I'm sorry that you're experiencing weird shit with your body and that it's got you so anxious. As someone who's also currently working through a life-changing crisis, I think you should take a step back and breathe. You're still here and you're still alive.

Please try to steer your mind away from self-harm. I'm experiencing similar thoughts, but we can't give up when there's still life to live. Things may be materially shitty and the outlook is whack, but as long as we're alive, we can get through this.

If you're in the US, texting 988 helped talk me down from an extreme anxiety attack over not being able to survive through my circumstance. They'll listen to you, and offer some suggestions with a trained perspective on helping people through crises. It helped me organized my thoughts and be able to see through the worries.

Edit: They also can provide links to services or resources, or tell you when you should go to the doctor/hospital.

If you're not in the US, you may be able to look up some similar resources in your country.

Those are some suggestions, it really sucks to hear that you're going through that. You'll be okay.

Frankling

Your experiences and opinions are completely justified. I'm white, and white people have a shit ton of unlearning to do by default, as others have mentioned. I'd like to believe that a lot of white leftists genuinely support and believe in progressive, socialist, or communist beliefs/movements, but it takes a lot of work to shift from always viewing everything from a white lens.

I'll admit that I was a bit of a shithead until about 7 years ago when I got introduced to new ideas and began to truly listen to other people's experiences. When you're growing up in a primarily white suburban bubble, that kind of curbs social development if there isn't a lot of exposure to other peoples' and cultures experiences.

Granted, it is a very common phenomenon that white leftists put on the air of revolutionary thought & rhetoric, but they're still more white than leftist. A lot of these folks never grow beyond just saying the right things, and the mask can slip off and they'll show their ass. That does make it difficult to sus out whether a white person is genuine or not, and I've run into it plenty of times myself.

Mf really went, "Ooh, free leg!"

He's so young to be having a stroke, that shit's scary af. I hope he's recovering okay, he seems like a really thoughtful and good dude.

Imagine paying $40 million for a home in florida

This is one of the funniest responses in the thread:

Cool, thanks for taking the time to explain that! I haven't been active on Hexbear since before federation was a thing, so all of this is new to me.

Can I participate on Lemmygrad with the same login I use here? I'm not really an active user anymore, but I'm trying to get away from FB and still need a little bit of online interaction with other communists.

TikTok Tankies goes pretty hard, tbh.

No, I used incognito mode which tells me that I should probably try deleting my cookies lol.

Edit: That worked, haha. Thanks!