Thallo

Honestly, the thought of losing my hair is what largely set this all off

Sorry, I'm confused.

They don't? Why did you think that?

I'm not sure what you're referring to here.

To clarify my original comment, I was just saying that taking things slow and experimenting is a good idea and that you aren't in any danger or acting impulsively.

As far as the "being influenced" thing goes, I didn't comment. I'm not sure what to make of that. Charitably, maybe your therapist doesn't want you to think that transition is "the fix" to an unrelated mental health issue that you may have. For instance, I have an anxiety disorder that is largely disconnected from my gender identity; however, I think about transition WAY more when I'm going through an episode of that because I instinctively have the feeling that I want to fix something in my life and feel better. Uncharitably, they think it's just a phase or something. But... You could demonstrate it's not over time. You just have to last more than 2 weeks, right?

also I really appreciate you pushing back if I'm being dramatic/silly

I don't think I want to push back or tell you you're being silly or dramatic. I think being with a therapist makes people feel incredibly vulnerable. I'm really thankful for mine. When I read about the things your therapist says, it really sets me off, so I think you're right to feel that way.

Mostly, though, I'm just confused and I hope I'm communicating clearly xD

What Minecraft server does your therapist play on? I wanna hop in with them.

Anyway, honestly, the advice isn't bad. Like Jennifer says, there's a lot you can do without jumping on to hormones immediately. It's okay to experiment and explore things without going all the way. Trans people throughout history didn't have access to hormones or surgery, so, like, you can really be trans without any permanent changes to your body.

ALSO, detransitioning is fine. I know someone irl who detransitioned, and I know people here who have. It's alright, too. It's not a big deal. None of these people regret transition in the first place. It just wasn't right for them anymore

I'm really glad you got what you needed. That sounds so hard

For me it was always just that I wanted to be a girl, but didn't realize that that was an option so I just ignored it and was actually quite good at being a guy.

Actually the fact that I was good at being a guy sorta kept my egg from cracking for a while too. It really felt I had so much to lose.

Oh, hi, it's me again. Well... I took longer than you.

Sorry about your engagement. That must have been really hard. That was literally my biggest fear.

We need to perform a special recruitment operation

Fucking banger!

And there are poor trans people starving in blahaj.zone without us

Tell me it's a site record!

Don't use a bladed razor more than once a day!

If you need cleanup throughout the day, use an electric one

But one has to also realize that, in the 2000s, there really wasn't any form of awareness when it came to being trans. I didn't meet me first trans person until I met my wife in 2010. Even then, I didn't understand her "I want to be a girl" was anything other than just a thought. I didn't know you could change that. Not even when I met a transmasc person that I worked with in 2012. I didn't know HRT was an option until literally 2019.

This is so real.

I don't think my age really did anything to me except, in the early throes of my transition, made me feel like I was a fake for not having my egg crack when I was 12 like my wife

Yeah, despite me growing out my hair, doing voice training, having an entire woman's wardrobe, lasering my leg hair off, scheduling facial hair removal, painting my nails, changing my pronouns here, coming out to my wife and friends, reading queer lit, and posting here constantly, I still like to pretend I'm just a confused cis guy

Well, you're braver than the troops. Thank you for your service. Speed running bottom surgery that quickly is so wild to me!

at least it won't be as terrible as reaching the end of my life having never fully been the person I really wanted to be

Yeah, this is my beacon

Ah, yeah, just the face. The body will probably wear them out a lot more because of the surface area, but also the body should be a lot thinner than your facial hair