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I fucking hate being nurse-cop to mental health patients. This is why I didn't do adult medsurg and I picked oncology and then pediatrics.

Not even mimecraft stuff. Black Panthers breakfast program as part of their survival-pending-revolution was too much for the powers that be. The black lives matter protests in 2020 and earlier in Ferguson, that was too much and people got merced for it. Sending medical supplies to Cuba... like, nevermind the joy that could come from being a Modern Revolutionary you're not even allowed to give people food who need it

Yeah, you need praxis to develop theory. Visa versa too, but way too many people focus on getting theory right. It's the easier thing to do of the two in the coddled west, so it's what a lot of people have been doing for 50 years. I guess the people who did do praxis kept getting killed or imprisoned so there's that

You were nerfed in a previous balance patch but the docs found an exploit to get you back to your previous glory

The Golden Rule got kind of expanded into the Kantian Categorical Imperative - instead of what one should do to be moral, it tells us what we should not do. So he says, "do not treat people as purely a means to an end, because they are human and have intrinsic worth" for example, don't lie, don't cheat, etc. Which isn't a bad way to live life. Of course, he said it'd be wrong to lie to an axe murderer the whereabouts of your loved ones on the grounds that it treats even the axe murderer as a means to an end rather than as a person... so not perfect anyway. Ideally, if everyone is following the Golden Rule or the Categorical Imperative then there is no harm ever done. But we don't live in an ideal world.

Socrates said "there is no moral evil" because he said it was impossible for anyone with sufficient knowledge to act in an evil way. Because, in his view, if they knew enough they would act in their best interests - which means limiting harm and never treating others poorly. For him that meant education and the cultivation of certain virtues meant people would act well instead of giving rules to say what is the right or wrong way to act - except his virtues were made up in Antiquity lol so didn't really include a lot of respect for women's rights for example.

Sometimes Justice and Doing What Is Right demands we get some retribution or are made whole after some harm was done (for example, being abused by a person in authority) or even act punitively to prevent future harm (like removing those teachers from their jobs, maybe even banning them from ever working with anyone vulnerable, not just children). In that case, it's wrong to keep treating someone well when they're harming you - it's only going to encourage further harm to someone else.

Maybe treating them as you would have them treat you might include "hey, if I'm acting like a dick and abusing people - tell me and others and do everything you can to stop me from doing that." Sure, that's "badly" for narcissists who think they can never be wrong but not for people who aren't, right? If I said something harmful carelessly, I would hope to be corrected! There's certainly a class of people who really think treating them "well" means doing whatever they say to do and accepting all punishment, earned or not. IMO, they have a very poor understanding of what being treated well really means lol

The smell... the glorious sweaty worked out smell...

Were talking sexuality tonight looks like

For me, since I was young, I've always gone for the gender different people - tomboy, yes, femboy, yes, enby? Oh fuck yes. That was my only criteria, couldn't date gender normal people. My girlfriend now describes herself as futch and a breaker of binaries, my ex was enby since like 2010. Apparently, gender fuckery is my thing and as far as I remember, it always has been.

There are other androgen blockers ♡

If they stop spiro, cypropterone is right there and available (in fact, you might move to it eventually anyway).

It's not a typical side effect from spiro, in fact some people get fatigued.

Anything else changed in your life? Anything like a new SSRI, SNRI that can make you tired but wired? Anything particularly stressful any changes at work/home life? I mean, obviously there's the transition part lol.

It's a very common thing, I think it's down to comphet and now you're a woman and subject to that external and internalized pressure too. It's not impossible to find out you're bi or straight after transitioning (plenty of trans women dated women as beards before transitioning). You're allowed to experiment!

My mom was so good about my pronouns. She was so supportive. But she still referred to me Uncle (when baby talking her dog lol) for a long long time. Eventually she got better.

I was waking up in the middle of the night to pee on spiro. Eventually I adapted to being able to fall asleep and my schedule at the time let me sleep in if I needed.

Melatonin or Benadryl (for sleep) isn't bad but any sleep aid should be used only temporarily if possible.