Oh I do remember that one too, found it eye-opening, and yep probably because it's right in his wheelhouse so to speak.
So very sorry about the pain - I've been adjacent to it, which of course is not even a sliver of what it's like to experience it. Someone close to me once had to wean themselves off Methadone, unexpectedly, and without help, which he had been (eventually) prescribed cuz nothing else would touch the pain. I don't really understand how he's still alive TBH (not just from that), but he's the kind of old-school stubborn that defies logic of any kind.
Chronic pain and chronic isolation (esp. of the elderly) are two titans of misery just hiding in plain sight, stomping on life. I hate it.
I didn't understand quite what you meant about a "suicide machine" unless that's just a euphemism for something obvious. If you want to elaborate I'd be curious, but I fully understand if not.
Totally understand, almost didn't ask for that reason. Glad things are going better for you.