NocturnalMorning

Are there any support groups in your area? I go to a free support group for survivors once a week. I am sure you can find something. There are low cost therapists, and sometimes insurance can cover it. I totally get having a bad experience with a therapist. Ive had a few bad experiences myself, but I've also found therapists that were an excellent fit for me.

But, if therapy isnt an option, talk to someone, anyone. You cannot work through this by yourself. It took me years to get over my ex-wife. And i was in the same head space you are in now, but I didnt have access to guns. If I were you, I would get rid of any guns you own, for your own safety.

And please, for the love of God, be kind to yourself. You are not a failure, and you will get through this! I believe with everything in my heart that you will make it through this and come out with a better understanding of yourself.

Relationships dont have to ruin who you are. Do not let this woman steal who you are! You had a life before her, and you can have a life after her, just as fulfilling. I promise you, from someone who has been in your shoes, it will slowly with time get better, even if it doesn't feel like it now.

Please dont beat yourself up about what happened. It takes two people to end a relationship. If you need to DM someone and talk this out,, my DMs are open my dude!

Nah, they totally have a diagnosis, its just not public. These are people who were elected to the highest office in the country. They have the best doctors in the world following them around.

Im actually pretty sure they're afraid of the populous.

What is it with the world's government's trying so hard to spy on their citizens and become police states? What are they afraid of...

I hope Nintendo dies a slow painful death...wishful thinking, but maybe with their shit policies it will eventually catch up to them. Not today I guess...

Yeah, like, come on, you like ME? Are you sure you're not just crazy...? NEXT.

Shut up and let me talk! Im sorry I talked over you, but now I have something to say, and you're going to hear it!

Some day money won't be worth the paper its printed on. I look forward to that day, although that likely means modern society has collapsed. But I sincerely look forward to the day billionaires have to live like the rest of us and deal with the consequences of the world they've forced on everyone else.

Money isn't the answer to the world's problems.

Im gonna get a little personal here bcz it seems like you need it. First off, i dont know what happened, but im really sorry youre going through this. Nothing can replace the gaping hole that your partner left. And I empathize with you in the loss of a very dearly loved one.

My father hung himself from a bridge when I was 5 years old. He had 4 kids with his wife of 17 years..its just a fact of my life I have to live with. Im on my 30s now.

I never emotionally recovered from that event in my life. It devestated my family, and ended up scarring his children, and forcing my mother into a series of abusive relationships and deadend jobs just to make ends meet. I had a rough childhood.

But I can tell you, it got better, and my life is not all consumed by his death anymore.

I know the world seems dark right now to you, and nothing matters. But if you do something permanent, you are doing something permanent in response to temporary feelings.

I can promise uou that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. If you have friends you can talk to, do it! Even better, see a therapist, and let them help you through the grieving process..

I have been where you've been. I have wanted a way out, for the pain just to end. But I can tell you from experience, if you go through with it, people will miss you dearly, and always wonder what if anything they could have done differently to keep you around.

Now, im not saying all this to tell you my sob story. I am just trying to put my comment into context of why I am posting this morning.

You really should talk to someone about whats going on with you. I went to therapy for years to get over my trauma, amd the funny part is, before that, I had no idea I was so fucked up. But, after a lot of therapy, I came out the other side a little bit better.

And im still here to tell my story, and encourage other people to do the same...a little piece of advice my therapist told me, "Feelings are not facts". It has always stuck with me, no matter what I am doing, I try to remind myself that my feelings are not factual. They are certainly real, and they affect how I approach life. But they are not concrete facts, and they do not have to control me.

Please take care of yourself, and talk to someone you can trust about what youre going through!

I am very sad this isnt a real Wikipedia article...

Right, bcz we have created a society that demands that. Doesn't mean it has to stay that way.

What we need is less cars, more bikes, and more people walking. Approaching everything from a carcentric point of view is how we got here.