LeylaLove

People are such assholes to me, just got screamed at because this guy's card declined. I felt bad for him, but he was just screaming and being a giant asshole. It's so loud I can't make any sounds out over the constant beeps of timers, and I'm always startled by the shit.

I really hope I can get on disability

I say, It's the pills, it's the drinks But maybe it's just how I think The need to say it with a wink My cynicism's killing me I'm really sorry for the greed Beer's my mistress, I have to leave But that girl keeps calling me And I pick up hoping you don't see

You broke my heart, but gave me yours I left it strewn across the floor I don't blame you not wanting more But better days are sure in store The softest eyes I've ever seen The cleanest air I've ever breathed You're so perfect I can't believe You ever chose to be with me

In the night, in the morning, You're the girl I'm adoring Come together like baskets weave While the cats bite at our feet You're the only drug that I need The greatest high I've ever seen When we're singing and rolling weed Or when we're talking bout planting seeds

Without you, I couldn't breathe Either dead or nodded on the street I don't wanna go another day Of leaving you hurt by my ways It's not okay, I can't ignore it Our life together is like a forest I'm a lit cigarette on a trailer floor And I keep burning holes on the armoir

Guess who gets to show up for a shift in full psychosis, they're about to have a mental health awareness day

I posted here a couple months ago asking people here how to deal with schizophrenia symptoms without being prescribed meds. It was a difficult conversation to have with me because I wasn't just being paranoid about going to get help, those people actually ruined my life for a solid year after I stopped going to them. A lot of people on here gave me a lot of great support. Their care kept me from doing what I did for a few months, and probably went into it being a half hearted attempt.

Things boiled over a few months later unfortunately. About a month ago, I was drinking heavily. Fought with my partner, went to bed, and tried to kill myself the morning after all of it. I didn't end up dying. I tried calling 911 in the moment, but lost my phone and learned that Alexa cannot do emergency calls. I seized out and slept for a day. Woke up the next day with clear symptoms of serotonin syndrome and went about getting it treated without getting locked up. Thought about it for a bit and realized I was also an alcoholic who needed to get help for drinking, and my plan was cooked and honestly pretty fucking fire.

I went into a mental health center that focused on rehabilitation and told them that my clearly visible serotonin syndrome was alcohol withdrawal. Did my intake, they sent me to their urgent care, who proceeded to send me to the emergency room. They gave me a bunch of benzos for the week, and that took care of the alcoholism and the building serotonin syndrome. Afterwards, I returned to the rehab center because they also offered psychs and 24/7 walk in counselors, which I've found very helpful. The psych listened to me and said that to him, it is clear as day that I'm suffering from PTSD and brain damage, with everything else being secondary. He said I may have schizophrenia, it's definitely in the family history, but was far more concerned about everything else. Sent in a referral for neurologist appointment. The meds have proved it so far. He gave me meds for PTSD and they've been quite helpful. I asked for my risperidone back and he gave it back to me without second thought, even at the dose I asked for. Between the two, 70 percent of my psych med needs are met. Not perfect of course, but I have a psych appointment with them next week so it hasn't been too much of a pressing matter. Also, they helped me sign up for medicaid, and that's pretty cool

To anybody questioning if they need psych meds or not, the answer is probably yes. I'm on one of the heaviest knockout meds on the planet and get an inexplicable boost of energy from it because of how well it medicates all my issues. I'm starting to get a routine again, and it's great. Like I feel like I can actually live a long term life again

This show is so fucking great. It's autistic comedy at its peak. But this episode is essentially just a compilation of Joe's excitement and joy after finding his new favorite song.

I'm not calling anybody's music or tastes out here. But I'm sure there's a song you can think of that fits this.

I'm the Scatman by Scatman John is my pick. It meant a lot to me as a stuttering 12 year old. I don't like eurodance or anything of the sort, I kinda think it's terrible, but this song just makes me smile every time.

Never heard of this med before. Research seems to support it working well, but I'm curious if any of you guys are experienced with it

Yes, you have to be a member to watch the rest of the episodes, but this is easily one of the best reality TV shows I have ever seen. It's all in on the capitalist exploitation side of reality TV, and that's what does it. Pirate the rest of the show or something, IDK, it's just that good

The concept? Two college humor writers pitch a game show where they do crazy challenges to pay off their college debt. The twist? These are two long time friends, and they're the ones giving the challenges to each other. This is one of the most clever pieces of anti-capitalist media I've ever watched. I'm not gonna go too far in the spoilers, but I'm just going to say that Grant and Ally save their friendship by the end of it. I mention it because the show is almost unbearable to watch unless you know that it's going to end well.

These friends giving each other extraordinarily debasing tasks in a battle to pay of their student loans is just such an amazing allegory for this

This song being one of the first DAW only hits, also made by a lifelong Marxist (with a trot phase in the 80s). Also an amazing set of lyrics

Now I know your heart, I know your mind You don't even know you're being unkind So much for all your highbrow Marxist ways Just use me up and then you walk away

You're a marxist but exploit me like a capitalist is super hard hitting

When will this preset finally die?

Title. I've been really enjoying Ghosts so far, it's been a really fun show so far. I'm specifically looking for shows, because I can just pirate a movie in a few minutes, but I'm down to watch anything good.

One of the greatest live performances I've ever seen. The concert was called "a farewell to men", a send off for the bassist moving on to different music. What resulted was the band giving it their all, near perfect live recording, massive song structure changes, improving an already near perfect catalog of songs in ways you couldn't think of.

However, the bassist ended up staying in the band. The album is still called Farewell To Men because lead vocalist Shinji Sato died of chronic health conditions 3 months after this concert. The way Shinji is performing, it felt like he knew it. The concert feels like a divine gift, as if Sato was sent here by the Gods to perform that concert and couldn't leave until he had. Amazing album