Kolibri

Of course he can, like his labourer, take to work himself, participate directly in the process of production, but he is then only a hybrid between capitalist and labourer, a “small master.”

Isn't that like, the petite bourgeoise?

From the standpoint of these, capitalistic co-operation does not manifest itself as a particular historical form of co-operation, but co-operation itself appears to be a historical form peculiar to, and specifically distinguishing, the capitalist process of production.

Marx kind of like confused me on this, I'm not exactly sure what he's trying to say? Was he trying to say like, it's not like a historical form of cooperation, but more like, in capitalism, cooperation plays a different role?

venting a little

cw: alcoholism

feeling very mainly just because like. my dad relapsed with his drinking again. and just. I dunno. I know it's not easy for him, and he is trying. He did go like a week. It just like.. hurts. dunno how else to describe the emotions I feel.

I got like involuntary detained by police twice and nothing like getting thousands of dollars of medical debt for being forced into a psych ward, because no health insurance.

yea bit by bit! just need to stick with it

I dunno if this is fitting for the bookclub or elsewhere, but like besides getting depressed, it was hard not getting mad at this chapter. A lot of the stuff just like reminded me of my mom and her workplace, that I still feel like worked her to death last year. Since like like at the end of 2022, I still remember my mom calling me while in pain, about how she needed help. Since like her workplace made her do something that like really hurt her physically. because that damned place like, had a lot of regulation violations that were never enforced. and I remember my mom constantly talking about it a lot and everything. along with her being like short staffed and other things.

but like literally thanks to that workplace she ended up hardly being able to move much at all. and she had to quit. and then she had to worry about her health insurance and eventually being out of it. and then she tried to get disability but was denied and just...

and just. I dunno. I know this chapter was generally about the working day, but still like, while maybe some things have changed, it hasn't changed in many other aspects. and it's hard to not get angry.

I think I'm gonna try relearning spanish again, even if like, I'm not too focused on it. I dunno, it just would be nice to speak to my grandma not in english. but it couldn't hurt just to learn a few stuff each week. even if I don't really want to because either im too depressed or dealing with a bunch of other stuff.

Can't a lot of these abuses and exploitation still be seen in countries dealing with imperialism?

I just finished section 4 and it never really occurred to me how way back then, children were being forced to work in the night. I know way back when I was in school when this stuff was talked about, it was very limited. mainly just only talking about like kids in coal mines and not much else. This chapter is really depressing. Also seeing Marx cite a footnote and talk about health effects of night shift works reminded me of when I did night shift work, and like reading about modern day medicine stuff about health effects of night shift work

I just accidentally learned that if I hover my mouse over the volume icon on my taskbar, and use the scroll wheel, I can change the volume

oh ok! and it happens!