Kolibri

I been skipping a lot, and no I haven't, but I could like get some tomorrow because me and my dad are going to do like our grocery shopping tomorrow.

venting cw: eating related stuff, grief I guess

I'm like very dehydrated, and to make matter worse, my stomach hates me right now that im using the restroom a lot. just why

it's like fine and stuff? it just like. last year I thought I smelt something burning because my dad has never bothered to clean the vents behind the dryer? in like decades. and I got worried. and then stopped using the dryer and just like air dried my stuff for like a little bit, before like, trying to use the drying machine again. meanwhile when I was air drying my stuff, my dad just kept using it. and now im slowly easing myself to try and use it again.

Parenti so good

so I guess like, I might of been over worrying about like the drying machine catching on fire? because I been trying to use it more and it's been... fine? and my dad been using it and it's been fine. and I noticed sometime last week, when I get incredibly anxious, I notice I start to smell something burning... which is fun! and makes things worse. despite nothing burning. and I just need to like relax and take a few breaths

yea, and section 5 was really good!

also this was funny

“Anthony Müller of Danzig saw about 50 years ago in that town, a very ingenious machine, which weaves 4 to 6 pieces at once. But the Mayor being apprehensive that this invention might throw a large number of workmen on the streets, caused the inventor to be secretly strangled or drowned.”

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“lays down his spade, he renders useless, for that period, a capital worth eighteen-pence. When one of our people leaves the mill, he renders useless a capital that has cost £100,000.”

hell yea, get fucked

also like after doing the weekly reading, and relaxing, welcome to the machine came up in my playlist. kind of funny in a way.

It was depressing for Marx to like cite off death counts in districts. Also that part of factory schools was really depressing, I can see why like Marx was critical.

When Marx started to talk about like machines and divison of labor, it sort of like reminded me of like, reproduction of capitalism? from like human labor divisions to like machine labor divisions more or less? and with this week reading it reminded me of like, how important things like oil are to capitalists. with like how much they can power with it.

also the part about like the limits of the workday, leading to improvements of machinery, leading to limits of the workday, remind me of like. tendency of the rate of profit to fall? and with this chapter it kind of reminded me of modern day stuff, like when people talk of AI replacing/taking their jobs. in which the push for that is to like, lower that relative surplus value more?

Section 5 was really good. The sections before were kind of a trudge

I just tried talking to my dad, and legit had a ton of trouble just speaking and just like it's pretty frustrating. would be nice to just be able to mentally communicate. would make life easier. this sort of reminded me of like. before my mom passed when she was in the hospital last year. that she needed a small whiteboard to communicate and she told me she knew how I felt now and in a way it felt like I was seen, but also closer to my mom a little more? I dunno.

I had like, a really odd dream of like. The actor from malcolm in the middle trying to do a maoist uprising.