I watched pacific rim for the first time and its pretty fun
Kolibri
week 12! that about 3 months now?
venting
cw: depression
my dad like really drunk today and it's getting to me today. and I just wish I could just not be here. it's just like really tiring. just gotta make it through today and then tomorrow will come. except tomorrow will be the same thing almost every day. im gonna like do my best to refrain from talking about like all the death thoughts I get, but like a part of me wants to talk about it. but like its tiring to deal with that to on a daily basis to, esp since its like. forever with those thoughts. I know its not normal, but its normal for me.
it just would like it would just be nice to like find a way to self medicate or escape or something. just to not think or feel or be here. since it feels like there no escape sometimes. esp. when my sleep fucked and I cant just dream and be away from everything.
im very dumb and im just gonna go touch grass now
oh I get it now, all ears, hares. for that emote. I just thought that emote was about the ears on the rabbit, and it was like "get it all ears because the rabbit has big ears?" not like. the former.
I'm in a weird mood
I really like how Marx looks around the world, I never heard of the Orissa famine and like. it just so fucked what britian did
also this footnote was interesting
The necessity for predicting the rise and fall of the Nile created Egyptian astronomy, and with it the dominion of the priests, as directors of agriculture.
I made legendary shoes in guild wars 2
I found this part really interesting at the end of chapter 15, very relevant today.
Moreover, all progress in capitalistic agriculture is a progress in the art, not only of robbing the labourer, but of robbing the soil; all progress in increasing the fertility of the soil for a given time, is a progress towards ruining the lasting sources of that fertility. The more a country starts its development on the foundation of modern industry, like the United States, for example, the more rapid is this process of destruction. [245] Capitalist production, therefore, develops technology, and the combining together of various processes into a social whole, only by sapping the original sources of all wealth — the soil and the labourer.
while on the other hand the absence of that antagonism is sufficient to explain the delays and chicanery of the legislation on mines.
my dad told me thanks for doing a lot of the cleaning around the house, and now I feel pretty happy. esp. since he doesn't say it that much.