Kolibri

I forgot easter was a thing, until like I saw someone mention it. I'm living in a void devoid of time

I finished a legendary armor set in guild wars 2. Now to do something else better with my life and not play gw2 again

What has Marx done. I was reading an article and the author kept using "on the other hand" and I couldn't stop thinking of Marx because he says that a lot

So from this footnote in chapter 24, isn't this one of main things in dialectics? negation? I'm assuming so because of that last part "“Determinatio est Negatio.”

He is as much at home in absurd contradictions, as he feels at sea in the Hegelian contradiction, the source of all dialectic. It has never occurred to the vulgar economist to make the simple reflexion, that every human action may be viewed, as “abstinence” from its opposite. Eating is abstinence from fasting, walking, abstinence from standing still, working, abstinence from idling, idling, abstinence from working, &c. These gentlemen would do well, to ponder, once in a while, over Spinoza’s: “Determinatio est Negatio.”

These chapters were a lot to process and to take in, but it's really good. It also felt like at the end of section 3 of chapter 24 Marx was mad? I def was, but I really liking Marx getting getting snarky at the end of sec three. Marx talking about capitalist and abstinence reminded me of one idiom, to make money you got to make money. Except it leaves out like the whole, exploitation of buying another person labor power and then taking their unpaid portion and etc. But that idiom in a way feels like a modern day version of like that "abstinence" from the capitalist? Don't spend money for yourself or anything, use to reproduce and accumulate more money.

Also I really enjoyed the footnote from Martin Luther and Marx applying to capitalists. It's very fitting. It was also fitting when Marx mentioned tribute as well.

The never ending flow of accumulation, and reproduction, reminds me of monopolization and a few other things. Like how some capitalists like Musk whine about birth rates. Especially when Marx mention how like capital needs new labor. And the part of capital concerning itself about the necessities of life, reminded me of how people are owning lesser of things?

Also this part

Fanatically bent on making value expand itself, he ruthlessly forces the human race to produce for production’s sake; he thus forces the development of the productive powers of society, and creates those material conditions, which alone can form the real basis of a higher form of society, a society in which the full and free development of every individual forms the ruling principle.

reminded me of this quote from Stalin from his interview with Roy Howard

It is difficult for me to imagine what "personal liberty" is enjoyed by an unemployed person, who goes about hungry, and cannot find employment.

Real liberty can exist only where exploitation has been abolished, where there is no oppression of some by others, where there is no unemployment and poverty, where a man is not haunted by the fear of being tomorrow deprived of work, of home and of bread. Only in such a society is real, and not paper, personal and every other liberty possible.

I had the same feeling to when getting around to this. It also really changes the meaning to of what is said by dead labor as well. It reminded me of like one of the very earlier chapters, I think chapter 6? of working being like credit to the capitalist, but taking on another new meaning now. also like with the part of alienation, that surplus value from one worker being used to hire another worker from another worker labor. It' was also pretty gross how open some of those capitalists or political economists were open about seeing workers as machinery and such, like with Potters and that manufacturers’ manifesto

oh okay! sometimes jokes fly over my head

it's time to sleep and let marx mess with my dreams again because I need to stop reading before bed time

I caught up with last weeks reading of das kapital, and partially of this week. Hopefully I can finish this weeks. I like the weekly book club since it gives me something to do for the week. And having something to do in general, helps a little with my mental health. I also took some ibuprofen earlier and that been very helpful, and made me feel better

I don't really know, I'm trying not to think too much about it because of health anxiety. too much like weird stuff that could lead to like, a lot of over worrying.

venting again but ugh. why the fuck are like. the spots where I got my wisdom teeth extracted like way back in september or whenever it was, hurting a lot lately out of the blue. like fuck it hurts. maybe its from all the stress and sleep issues and I don't know.