KittyBobo

Is that unicorn from something, I swear I've seen it before.

Give him my number.

I think they'd initially be okay with Euro migrants but then we'd very quickly go back to the days where we'd stop considering them white.

What most interests me lately is how fear interacts with sexual desire. Fear and anxiety are like a mental friction, and what is sex and getting off if not friction with a little lube? Like we see a lot about racist white people getting off to racial cuckolding porn or how trans porn is so prevalent in transphobic states, but I wonder if this happens on the other side of politics. Are there people who are in to Nazi uniform fetishes not because they are fascist but rather because they're afraid of the growing fascism in the world? Or like how Tom of Finland and a lot of early gay culture incorporated police uniforms or Nazi adjacent black leather as a way of appropriating oppressive ideologies for kinky and open sexual expression. I can't really bring myself to say "you can't like X because it's problematic for Y reason", but I do think it's an interesting thing people should feel open and willing to interrogate about themselves. It's all brain worms placed there because of the material conditions we have, those worms are an expression of trying to work through anxieties and fears and depression about sex and gender and I wish there were judgement-free place to just come out and say "here are my brain worms, here's what I think it says about me!" in a space that isn't explicitly for porn where people typically aren't interested in the "why" and just want to get off without thinking about it.

The unemployment and disability websites here don't even work 24/7. If you can't get to a computer until after 4 you're SoL.

And if you're applying for a mental health issue with nothing physical and obvious you might as well go fuck yourself. No medical history because you haven't been able to afford to see a doctor in over two decades? Go fuck yourself. No transportation to the see the guy that's supposed to determine if you're lying? Go fuck yourself. The guy doesn't ask you anything about your health or difficulties, takes one look at you and decides you don't need it? Oh you better believe it's time to go fuck yourself.

I milked unemployment for a bit. They made you apply for jobs every week, but the trick was that you could just click the link and that would count as applying even if you didn't fill anything out. So every week I'd just click three links to job applications and immediately close them.

What genuinely interests me is fetishes and sexual pathology. What people are in to and the material reasons that might give rise to certain interests. I wish I had more judgement-free spaces to discuss these topics, but it seems like in leftist spaces there's this disconnect where on one hand we're very pro-LGBT, kink should be at pride, sex work is work, but on the other hand what you're in to is gross, problematic, and/or should be kept behind closed doors you freak. Oh, we love weird, just not...y'know...weird.

Terrorist I can accept

What exactly makes people join ISIS? Is the US exploiting some legitimate tensions or disagreements? Is the US offering them control over the region or do they really believe the US won't stab them in the back later? I can almost always understand why leadership would be dogs for the empire, but what keeps the people on the ground radicalized? How do they recruit, what makes someone want to join and feel conviction? Is there a good Marxist resource for reading more about it?

I wish if I was depressed I could just be depressed and not this mental metronone where I'm rapidly oscillating between more despair than I have ever felt to feeling pretty alright.

Living here (not AL specifically) is just constantly feeling like Ralph Wiggum giggling and saying he's in danger.

Any of you PMCs want to just give me 20 grand? That's a years pay for me.