I'm also gonna say that OCD makes it extremely difficult to figure out what I want and what feelings and thoughts are "real" when it comes to being trans. I say this 8 months into medical transition
Jenniferrr
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Yeah for sure. I mean ultimately it's a calculus you have to make. It's a ton of effort though and it only works because it feels good to me and feels bad for me to present as a guy
Idk project 2025 does have me kinda worried as a trans woman. Like I'm making arrangements to GTFO if they do some kind of nationwide crackdown on HRT somehow (I sorta doubt this will happen but who knows)
Ok I didn't realize what happened here. This is actual bullshit yes. How many people own a gun and have smoked weed. Fuck all the way off
Depends on your state. If you are on the West Coast you probably can. I pay a 25 dollar copay for laser but seriously beats regular price.
Otherwise, I highly recommend you check out Groupon for laser. I've seen good discounts for packages that equal out to 50 dollar laser sessions which is relatively cheap for laser
Do you have health insurance? You should ask them who they cover if you do
You got this comrade stay strong!!
Well, my friends won't come out and say that I have masc behaviors. However, something is going on because I'm not a particularly super masculine looking person, and I literally never get gendered correctly. Even when I'm around people that have only ever known me as Jennifer, I routinely get misgendered (I get apologies which is all well and good but it still hurts). To me this means people just don't see it. Like if you've known me for a while and you still misgender me, it's something I'm doing probably. If it's happening all the time, I'm obviously just coming off as masc in a way that is undeniable.
And yeah I have a hard time with the " I know I'm a woman deep down". I basically know where I want to be, I know that if I could choose i would have been a cis woman, I want to be a woman. But I don't feel like a woman. Ofc I'm still not completely out. But also like, the other part of gender is that other people put a gender on me, ya know? And I'm just not getting anything from anyone that shows they see me as a femme or a woman or whatever. IDK I just feel stuck
Omg ikr. Im only like 7 months into my transition. Otherwise I was pretty good at being a cishet guy, well except that I was miserable. But yeah it takes so so much work to be seen right, and it's a total crapshoot for me. I think I need to come out to live 100% as myself but I don't really wanna come out until I'm at least passing as a trans woman most of the time. IDC about being clocked as trans though
My God I feel this so so so hard. For me it's confusing because it feels like my behavior is quite masculine, or at least somewhat masculine, and just like existing by myself puts me in this headspace where I'm like fuck am I just a guy oh God oh God. Or like when I mention this to literally anyone, no one is like " I think you're being hard on yourself". Everyone just affirms that I act masculine, which just sends me down the dysphoria spiral. So then I try to present more femme but still just incessantly get misgendered by everyone 😩 feel like I'm going insane and I can't really fix it at all, unlike my physical appearance. The hardest thing is that I do feel like I'm expressing myself in a fem way and it apparently is so far off from reality I feel like I can't trust my feelings
Yeah, so with my OCD I have had multiple obsessions that I'm this or that, when I'm clearly not. I thought I was significantly mentally impaired, as in developmentally impaired, when I was 14 for like months, and nobody was telling me. I thought I was a psychopath (lol I have the opposite problem). I thought I was much worse things. I also would regularly convince myself that I had this or that illness,. I would obsess over this stuff for months and it always kinda felt the same. However, mixed into this was figuing out I was bi like 10 years ago. And then figuring out I was trans.
Now, I only kinda realized there was a word for what I was going through very recently , that is, OCD.
This totally fucked me up. Because now, I realize that the feeling I got when I realized I was trans could have been OCD. But then... Maybe it's not? But does that mean that my other moral OCD obsessions are real? Is me being afraid I'm cis my real obsession? I can't tell what's real.
That's basically what I'm talking about