Ithorian

I've never felt a need to act masculine, some situations kinda require it but for me personally I've never cared. Over the last few years I've realized i really do prefer comrade/they/them. While I've never introduced my self with other pronouns I have started to check off "other" on forms that ask gender. I'm of the opinion gender itself bullshit concept. However bullshit or not it obviously has a very real impact in society. I've never once worried about SV or really any violence, I've never been told "this isn't a mans job," I've not received unwanted attention from people trying to get into my pants ect. At this point I've left the he/him pronouns on my name basically as disclosure, all my comments are made from a "privileged" point of view.

Not exactly sure what I'm trying to say. Maybe that I would feel dishonest not informing people? I don't mind people referring to me as male so maybe I'm pushing into a space I don't belong? Idk I've been thinking about this for days and still feel weird/confused.

I promise I'm not actually white. Seriously just give me food with authentic flavor.

100lbs of rice and 50lbs of beans just fucking destroyed. These blighted assholes are really making me rethink my "no-kill" trap policy.

My cause being collecting all the mtg commander decks. It wasn't exactly a voluntary donation but sometimes you have to help corporations be socially responsible.

Pure art

My well got contaminated and I need to get enough bleach to shock it. As of now the only drinking water we have isn't actually safe. Thanks helping a comrade out. (Paypal: avelyn@gmail.com)

There's a fair amount of rap I like that has like fucking 4 minutes of talking in it, I'm good to listen to that once but it interrupts the flow when im making a play list. Also some music I sleep with will have like one annoying section that I'd love to cut out. Bonus points if its use able on Linux.

Keep your hate pure! Mostly rap, hip-hop, metal and punk. I welcome any suggestions if you have ideas to help the rage flow.

All I want to do is fight and fuck and drink myself to death, I know they're all bad ideas but it's so hard to stop myself. I live angry at everything all of the time. People avoid me, which makes sense as I can rage at a seconds notice.

This episode is just starting, so far I've been handling it better then past ones but I have anywhere between another month to another year stuck in this state. I don't even get the cool manic energy that lets you crank out a book or something else worth while. I just have constant nervous energy that can't be put to any use. Fortunately I have pets, if I didn't have to be responsible for them I think I'd bounce on my whole life. I know that's a classic bi-polar feeling and will seem like a terrible idea when I come out of this but fuck every thing and everyone sucks. (except for you guys )

Are the lights and sounds actually changed enough to be helpful? If they are would a person without sensory issues still get anything out of the theater experience?

The indoctrination must start early.