Gibsonhasafluffybutt

10cc's of motivation please

I get the dirtiest looks when I dare get out of bed to get to the bathroom lol

"forgive me Gibson, the treat slave will be quieter next time" lol

I've got a box of doughnut fries in the fridge waiting for after dinner.

Im being good by waiting but it's tough lol

Sold plan. Might take some inspiration from you.

Thanks everyone for the kind words yesterday. It really means a lot ❤️

Edit: This is the vibe at my house right now

That's really kind of you :)

Thank you :)

During my sobriety I've been taking something called suboxone. You could liken it to an opiate blocker, though it does have a degree of a sedative effect.

This becomes unnoticeable after a while.

2 months ago I decided to stop taking it, as it was no longer required.

And so it turns out the mild sedation was not so mild at all. I was emotionally numb to a degree that I had forgotten what either positive or negative really felt like.

It has been tough. I have no desire to return to my old life, I have no cravings. I've had a constant underlying headache from various parts of my body being incredibly tense since the beginning.

But coming back into the world full of feelings and a nervous system that's been half asleep for a decade has been really, really hard. Everything feels so intense, both emotionally and physically.

I love it. But it's hard work. I'm stuck in this "reconfiguration" stage and I think I've mindlessly said "man, today has been a hard day" every day for a few weeks now.

I've played the best music I've probably played in my life over the last 2 months. I feel like myself. I'm excited. But it's a struggle. Were I not already somewhat used to dealing with stuff like this by myself, I think I would have run back to the medicine.

No one I know in real life knows about what's happening. I just needed to get it out of my system.

Thanks for listening.

/vent

No need to apologise :) It just made me realise how much I've eased up on my old doom scrolling habit.

I only found out about what's happening from your post.

And to be honest, that works just fine for me.

That nap is a damn good idea

I'll be drumming with you in spirit lol