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That's a great way to deal with it lol

I mean, at least I'm making something with it that gives me emotional catharsis then it's worth it.

Even though it's only 2 effects, the algos are incredible and many have multiple effects in one which helps.

I have one more on layby:

Wmd geiger counter pro. Look it up man. It's insane lol

Spent the night playing guitar, and it was worth it. The new pedal is absolutely incredible! Managed to write a new song for open mic in a few weeks. Was it worth the insane price? I tell myself: yes! Yes it was!

That's really kind of you to say :) I'm glad the dose is lower now. Apart from the anxiety, my body is far less tense, my mind is somewhat clearer and I feel more relaxed which was the whole point of the medication to begin with!

The phantom anxiety thing is the weirdest feeling: my body is anticipating anxiety but nothing happens. It's like it's bracing for it in expectation but then it's just calm. A few weeks of re-training should hopefully bring me back to some kind of normality. I've never had anxiety issues as an adult before, so it was definitely strange. I just assumed it was the price to pay for having the kind of focus I haven't had since I was around 12 years old.

Here's hoping the next 5 will be great, and thanks again :)

Cheers man :) Exactly right. At least it's over for the moment.

Absolutely. The full ramifications haven't really hit home, I'm just happy the endless anxiety I couldn't trace back is gone. I'm almost 100% sure this made my migraines worse as my body was tense the whole time I was awake.

I appreciate it :) Yeah I'm looking for a new psych

Same here man. Be good to go gigging again without having an insane level of anxiety.

As an aside: The H90 is fucking amazing lol

Had the Crystals algo going into the blackhole preset called "Cigar Roos" which is what Sigur Ros used when they had the eventide space in their line up. Bliss!!!!!! Even single note sounded absolutely incredible.

Hmmmmmm

If sunday isn't for sitting in bed, reading and napping then when is?

Edit: Glad I have a spare amp in the bedroom. Sleepy cat, guitar, iPad to read SCP's and my phone playing some tunes is perfect.

That's a nice thought :)

After experimentation with my adhd meds, I've concluded the following:

I have been taking double the amount required. For 5 years. Insane anxiety which has led to significant social isolation. I've lost friends, and countless other opportunities that could have altered my life in a positive way.

5.fucking.years.

Im very happy that I no longer have the anxiety. It's been a week since I've reduced the dose and there haven't been any negatives.

Same focus, same drive and motivation.

Except I have 5 years (well, 3 years) of conditioning to break out of. I still have this odd "phantom anxiety".

I was handed a bottle of pills and told to figure it out. So of course, once the positive impact of the medication kicked in, I assumed that the negatives were just a side effect id have to live with.

Lame.

Fucking. Lame.

Mmmmm nap good. More required.