Weirdly. I caught feels for a vtuber recently (completely unexpectedly) and now feel suddenly motivated to improve my life. It also feels like I got hit by truck with emotions that have been nonfunctional for several years.
Parasocial relationships are tough, as they can never be fully reciprocated, and dealing with that feels like it's going to be a bit stressful. That's also precisely why I'd avoided them and thought myself immune, but apparently not. Lol
Sorry, but that's a secret. I'd rather not publicly out my degeneracy level, dayo ne. (Even though my oshi is actually very wholesome.)