as one of the least corporate astroturfed places on the internet it's funny how hexbearite product recommendations have always been on point
maybe i'm too trusting but it's so hard to get legit opinions about things in this capitalist hellscape and this might be a sort of last enclave
used to be reddit but absolutely not anymore
and you never know maybe you'll build a chill mutual solidarity relationship, find out he's got family/friends back home, and have a welcoming place to stay while visiting Cuba one day!
yeah just noticed the hair. kind of fashy combo
yes please i think it would be a great idea. i have experience tracking down stuff online of all sorts but i have no idea where to start with hormones (excluding the T kind which plague the sites i frequent for other self-medication). at least with estrogen I'd imagine sourcing should be ok, maybe a gray area, since it's more of a "not for human consumption" then a federally scheduled substance
i'm really considering the DIY route despite anxieties. i feel like i'm running out of time.
i could have written this myself. im basically at your phase right now.
(CW some dysphoria/self doubt thoughts/health anxiety ahead)
i'm solidly middle aged now and the thought of having to work out nonstop to maintain my mombod makes me exhausted just thinking about it
that and i am agonizing over (what i perceive as) going from being a supposedly attractive middle aged guy to a (what my fears think will be) a fucked up looking butch monster woman. i used to have a really feminine face but age has masculinized it. i don't think HRT will turn back the clock
and my muscle mass and activity level is keeping me somewhat trim and i'm so afraid HRT will slow me down and make me gain shit loads of weight.
that and everything is in crazy equilibriam. i'm privileged to be bafflingly healthy despite my attempts to circumvent it when younger. i'm so afraid changing my hormones will upset some balance and give me super cancer or destroy my immune system. everything seems so fine tuned and i'm terrified of going the doctor route and getting a shitty doctor or being put on a list
everything else you wrote i have felt, am feeling, and also mulling over constantly
ACTUAL ADVICE:
only difference is i long ago abandoned orgasms that require being erect. if you want to explore your options there, get a cheap magic wand or knock-off and see if that works for you. it can give some real gender euphoria once you realize you can get off in an amazing way without an erection.
my partner is AFAB but was never really into penetration until more recently. if you enjoy that you can always try a good strap-on.
experienced transfemmes on HRT will probalbly tell you your sex drive changes more then simply "decreases". it's a metamorphosis
and there's always viagra!
so many elder millennial cis guys look like this. just throw some more gray in that beard
proceeds to just hand you a 8oz bottle of water and a 5 lb bag of sugar
i have no idea who told me this but they were dead set on 4 years because "they should be someone you could have been in high school with"
and then proceeded to be like "well might be cringe if a freshmen was dating a senior" "or college sophmore and high school junior"
and yeah it all fell apart really fast
don't even like cigars (long story, associate them with abusive grandparent)
but like, that's cool as shit.
i'd be so scared any stateside cuban might be a gusano.
be cool if this guy was an operative. like, the good kind
yeah somebody posted about them on here a few weeks ago i never heard of it
and im seriously just messing around writing songs for my partner. just banged out some reasonably passable lyrics in a few minutes.
the songs are generic and pretty low bitrate. just like the rest of this LLM nonsense i don't think this has a future outside of memes
it's been so long since i've done music composition. i can't play with tempo or chords or anything it's very simple. i've noticed the structure of the lyrics is the only thing that the LLM picks up on. you get what you get basically.
and i can't sing my partner can but they are horribly out of practice.
forgive me hexbear for i can write but can't music
i've been legit having fun with one of those AI music creators. doing extremely blatant communist propaganda metalcore and hardcore i enjoy seeing my words come to life
also the russian translation of the Internationale made a really decent celtic folk metal song apparently
the mod save our ship 2 recently updated for rimworld. it's basically an entire game on top of rimworld. it has a really satisfying game loop that's basically "fight enemy ships of slowly increasing difficulty, pacify and disassemble or weld them to your ship, upgrade and research, repeat". eventually you will either have a cobbled together mesh of useful chunks of spacecraft or your own sleek battlecruiser.
and you can just start in space and avoid the whole "start a colony on the surface and eventually build a ship". i mod the game so i start out as a spacer-tech faction with custom biopunk crew
i have no idea why it's so compelling. rimworld itself is seeming increasingly more limited compared to dwarf fortress but this mod is a game changer (ha)
i'm basically building the Defiant right now