Chronicon

Idk, I don't want a support group...I just want someone to help me, y'know?

yeah... but I don't just mean a support group, though those could maybe be helpful, I was thinking more like, community events and stuff that are trans-led or trans friendly. I don't take my own advice on this one though yet, and I may just be lucky to live in an are a with a lot of that kind of thing going on. even like, concerts, art shows, community dinners, idk. Ideally you'd make local friends and not only see these people in the group setting, I guess

I have those in spades, probably to a cancelable degree.

unfortunately a huge mood :/ I think I'm pretty good about not applying them to others but its hard to fully uproot them from my own thinking. I'll be feeling pretty good about myself but then they creep back in if I ever flinch or have a moment of doubt. Staying away from toxic online spaces helps IMO (I never went on /tttt/ thank god but I did get some 4chan brainworms when I was much younger, then a LOT from reddit and such)

til july 21st (I just watched that segment last night)

Oh I am on actual good doses now, I'm fine in that regard I think.

oh good! congrats

I feel that, socially transitioning feels like jumping off a cliff to me, a point where I can never go back and other such scary stuff. But most of that isn't true. It's not really a point of no return, and I don't have to explain myself to anyone I don't want to. Having contact with local IRL trans groups/people would probably help a lot with providing a built-in support group if you don't have one otherwise. I feel like being trans online carries a very high risk of self-hatred-causing brain worms unfortunately. Maybe IRL stuff isn't the perfect solution, but I guarantee you there are people who know exactly what you're going through and would be willing to help you work through the fear in a safe environment. I can't speak for anyone but myself but I preach far more confidence online than my IRL self has. saying it is easier than doing it, but its also not a good substitute for living authentically.

fwiw, it's fairly cheap and easy to mix up a bunch of injectable HRT at home compared to paying regular price or buying grey market pills. Enough to last years at high dosage. and I'd 1000% support a !mutual_aid@hexbear.net post to raise some cash to order you the supplies if the upfront cost is too much.

But also comparing yourself to other people on twitter is probably a recipe for pain no matter what. What's been helping me is seeing other out, proud, "imperfect" trans people IRL. Sure, some of them have body features I'm jealous of and may never have, but the opposite is also true, many would probably feel the same about me, and regardless they still are all just living their best lives, accepting each other and fostering joy and community. I also don't feel at home in that community IRL yet, but its not for lack of people being welcoming, it's my own thing to work out. Personally I'd say ditch twitter entirely but ik some people have valued social connections there.

I mean unless its really shallow building over mines is kind of inevitable and not unreasonable. But limestone mines specifically.... well limestone dissolves in water, so any change in drainage could undermine you and make the ground unstable I would think.

In principle this seems cool, but having hexbear-like opinions on most other instances is a short trip to getting banned, and even on hexbear with our limited federation sphere I leave my front page on Local at least 99% of the time because when I change it to All I either see very few non-local posts or run across stuff so dumb I feel pain for having witnessed it (or spammy low quality junk). Some of the FOSS comms I should probably follow but realistically it would just result in me getting nerd sniped constantly by other people's problems

Fun fact we also have a custom improved Active sorting algorithm on hexbear, can't get that anywhere else. Makes Active usable without it getting so stale and without it optimizing for days-long shit-flinging struggle sessions like the default active algo does

maybe aim for hanoi yeah... I had no idea HCMC was sinking...

lets just say I still would have more faith in vietnam handling sea level rise than say, florida, and I don't think northern vietnam is at risk of wet bulb temps any time too soon, but it would still be hot and humid for a westerner

yeah... I had no opinion of him before this since I browse Local 99.5% of the time, but like you'd think after this long of us being federated he'd be familiar enough with our userbase to know A) that our heart is generally in the right place and B) that doubling down, yelling at us, and civility politics weren't going to calm people down when he was seen as defending (for no good reason) a guy that had a long history of being shitty to begin with, and now was doing pedophile apologia.

Going "Um actually, I defended him before the pedophile apologia" rings pretty hollow when he was still being super misogynist before that... Like you gotta at least lead with "this is beyond the pale and he needed to be banned", if you conspicuously don't condemn his statements and then go on to try and nitpick everything people are saying because you took it as a personal slight against you, people are going to think you actually might agree with the pedo apologist.

Like genuinely, if he didn't get so defensive, and explained how lemmy.ml's moderation policies differ from hexbear's, and that this user had been given perhaps one or two too many chances because they wanted to give him an opportunity to become a positive part of the community, which often sorely lacks the perspective of global south comrades, I personally would have been satisfied with that (though glad that I stick to hexbear)

discord

only the honey mustard onion. They're fucking addictive

I didn't take the train but otherwise same

None of my friends went with me (one I'd usually go with is getting into the party scene this year instead), but I got a special pride bus pass and ran into someone I've done mutual aid work with selling their art. Genuinely a lot of cool radical queer people around (like pretty close to saying "death to america", not just anti-war activists or radlibs), it was very inspiring. I even bought some punk patches, though I don't know what I'll put them on. not sure I can pull off that kind of jacket, but also I kinda want to try it

There's so much more I want to share but I don't want to doxx myself any worse, its pretty city specific. suffice to say while my extremely shy ass didn't make a lot of new connections, I had a nice time soloing pride and fell more in love with my city/our queer community than ever.