I just cook bacon any time I need to re-season it. Lol.
As long as 49 states have employment "at will" and health insurance is tied to employment, it's just not going to happen.
Grieving is a skill, not just something that happens. There are people who can teach you how. Look for a therapist that specifically is trained in grieving.
After my father died suddenly, I felt like you did. I couldn't sleep because every time I closed my eyes memories of him flooded in. A breakup can be a lot like a death. Worse in some ways. You have to accept you can't see that person again, but unlike a death you know they are still out there. Mentally the processing of the feelings is the same though. Having a professional to talk to helps a LOT.
This is my specialty. Once my friends and I BBQed at a park but forgot the spatula and tongs. I smashed an empty soda can flat with a rock and wedged it on the end of a stick to make a spatula. I also sharpened and split a stick to make a sort of two pronged fork. It did the job.
Correction - Has led, is leading, and will lead...
It is becoming more and more apparent to me that the founding fathers didn't envision a society where duels didn't exist to act as a brake on this sort of behavior.
A large band around the equator will become unsurvivable. Hundreds of millions of people will flee to cooler climates. Countries will already be straining to provide food and water for their people. This will lead to wars for resources. Nations with nuclear capabilities will fracture and collapse, leaving their weapons in the hands of warlords and despots. Pandemics like COVID will become increasingly more common, not just for humans but for our livestock and crops. I hope you are right, but then again 5 billion might be a conservative estimate.
In fairness to Lincoln, the military wanted to execute 303 men, but Lincoln would only allow death sentences for those involved in rapes or massacres of civilians.
Jan 6 is actually the example I was thinking of. The system was overwhelmed enough that it took so long that their guy took office and pardoned everyone.
Part of me wants to sign up and then do my best to sabotage every operation I could.
That's the thing. You have to get enough people arrested that the system can't handle it. Its tough to find that many people willing to make that sacrifice until things get much worse than they are now
There are sliding scale healthcare places. Even if you make $40k, you can still find options for around $60 a session. And if that's still too much, selling a gun for a couple of sessions might help in multiple ways.