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Are 139 pg/mL estradiol 15 ng/dL testosterone (total) good levels? I don't trust my endo and I'm getting myself all in a panic thinking that maybe my levels have just been off which is why things have been the way they've been for the past two years

just checked old paperwork and my e level was in the 200s 6 months prior wtfff how'd it go down after getting my dose upped?

My opinions on other people change so rapidly, I'll go from considering someone a friend to hating them to thinking their my friend again over the course of a single day. This used to really cause problems for interacting with people but I've learned not to trust or act on my own thoughts until the opinion been solidified for a couple of weeks

Am I just a terrible person or is this some kind of condition?

I should actually do something to feel better instead of wallowing and stewing

Anyone got any fem haircut suggestions? Besides bangs, I don't think I'd look good with bangs

I've been growing my hair out for like 3 years now so it is long but messy and unstyled

Also anyone know of as way to cut down on frizz?

How long do I need to wait to live my life? Another 5 years? 10? I first started questioning half of my life ago, have known for sure for a third of it, I'm most of the way through my twenties and have missed out on countless life experiences. When does it get better?

I'm circling the drain and I have no idea what to do

reblogging this again actually to share some of my specific experiences on the transfem side:

doctors say body fat and boobs and stuff happen mostly within the first 3 years. but i got major spurts of breast development at 7 years and 11-12 years. my hips have become significantly wider in the past couple of years - at like 13-14 years HRT.

you will keep changing forever.

got to wait 14 years to be me what even is the point

The one time I went to an org meeting nobody else was trans but there was a terf who was rude to me so I didn't go back to a second meeting

Every interaction I've had with other trans people irl, both platonic meet ups and dates, has been awful

I hate people touching my body so that'd make me feel worse but thank you for the sentiment

My hair is the one good thing I've got going for me and is the only reason that I pass once in a blue moon (that is until they hear me speak or observe my mannerisms for too long)

I tried gaining weight and it just went to my gut and nowhere else. I took a picture of myself day 1 on HRT and I look at it every now again and cry, it looks just how I look now just disheveled

All my family hates me for being a removed so there's no way I'll ever get any inheritance

I've got no money no insurance FFS is years away

Started mid twenties and it's been a little over 2 years now