ApathyTree

My ex tried to teach me to drive stick on the way home from urgent care.. my urgent care. Because it was convenient for him at that time. He refused to teach me several times before then because it was inconvenient. (why yes, I did leave him decades ago over abuse, thanks for asking! Tho it was not the specific thing)

I don’t care if manual is superior in some irrelevant way; I refuse to learn now due to trauma. Pretty sure I looked just like this picture.

Thanks!

This isn’t depression.. I mean that’s probably some of it, but not the bulk of it. I’m actually in a much better headspace now than I’ve been for the last 15 years or so. It turns out my baseline happiness is that of a relentless optimist. Everything is going to be good, even though it really isn’t right now sort of thing. I have zero basis for that assertion, because my life is a complete shitshow, but I won part of the gene lottery on that one.

I was dx adhd at 5 (35 years ago) and pretty sure there’s a heavy dose of autism in there that wasn’t picked up because I’m AFAB and old, and getting screened for that now serves no purpose unless I want to be in a “work camp”.. (American)

The problem is object permanence. Most of the time I don’t even remember I have a treadmill, and when I do, like when I see the box, I never want to set the damned thing up. It’s not pressing or important, nor is it something I want to do, so it doesn’t get done.

I just built a chicken coop tho, so I’m capable of doing things I need to do, just not things I should, but would rather not tbh, do.

I bought a treadmill and stationary bike a few years ago.. weight training is less of a concern for me than cardio and getting in shape to use a bike as transport.. also the treadmill is meant to make VR less nauseating for me, and I haven’t wanted to play VR since getting it because it’s so nauseating..?

I’ve used the stationary bike a few dozen times, but the treadmill is still in the box.

I want to use them… well no, I want to want to use them…. Which means I don’t.

I feel like this is largely because if you can identify one trans woman, and are right, you think everyone who looks that way is also one. (Because sorry transmasc, you don’t exist to society as anything more than feminine gay man)

Which is why cis women, especially butch women, are frequently accused of being trans.. we don’t meet the stereotype of femininity, and thus must be men, rather than just.. women who aren’t hyperfeminine..

Same. I worked as a project coordinator for a few months for a sign company (temp job). It was supposed to turn into a real job but then they asked how I felt about project management and I was like… umm… so literally all the stuff I do now because the PMs here don’t do shit, but nobody to handle it for me when it fails? Meh. I’d rather stay as a coordinator without all the people management.

Needless to say they ran out my contract and reneged the offer. I’m not upset, tho it hurt at the time.

I had a diskman when they were dying to pure MP3 players.

It was an ATRAK3 plus (a proprietary compression format) and CD player combo that came with software to burn whole libraries on standard CDs, complete with folders and everything.

It was cool as hell, a built-in an/fm tuner, and I used it for work for years along with a single rewritable cd. I had different folders for different languages and genres and shit.

You can buy them on eBay now for like $30, which ironically is more than I paid for it in 2002-4 or whatever it was, however the software to convert to the ATRAK3 plus format was super super hard to find even in the early naughties, unless you have the installer disc.

They should have put one of those into the museum. Would have been way cooler and more informative and shit

In some English dialects, we have a middle distance indicator for those sort of… ambiguous distances.

We have:

This here

That there

And we have “just over there”.

If someone said the third option, you’d know it wasn’t far by the use of “just”, but also not close enough to count as here, even if it’s not technically formal language.

Some dialects also have an additional category to indicate things so far you can’t see them, like “over yonder”

I never put those things together.. wow.

I’d love to see that.. it would make other rich people really nervous, I think..

Thing is, that isn’t fun for everyone. Especially with activities chosen for you, it could be quite the opposite of fun. I’ve been subjected to “mandatory fun days” many times, and all of them have sucked hard for at least one person there (not always me, but they are always a massive waste of time for me).

I don’t actually want to be friends with my coworkers (friendly, yes; friends, no); it’s nice to have totally separate groups. No drama bleed, and people leave me alone so I can get my work done. Most jobs I’ve had, I don’t like my coworkers enough to be around them outside of job tasks, and I don’t have to. We are there to work, we didn’t choose the people we work with, and I’m not interested in using my job to replace my social life, especially since I typically have vanishingly little in common with the people with whom I work. We talk professionally about work stuff and that’s it.

Plus the work doesn’t vanish on this “day off”. It just means you have more to do the next day like any other day off, but you didn’t even get to do your own thing to cause that extra workload. Hard pass.

Did you know that in old English, Þ þ was a thorn, which was pronounced “th” like the word the. In Middle English, the shape of the thorn got, well, sloppy, because people are lazy as shit, and eventually took on the shape Y.

Thus, when you see a sign in “old English” (actually Middle English at best) that says ye olde shoppe, you should read it boringly as “the old shop”.

Off I go to ruin more days!

Stuff like this is why I have a rule with my friends, because we are all varying levels of broke at various times.

Whomever suggests going out (typically no more than 3 people) must be fully prepared to cover the costs of everyone being invited. They usually don’t have to do so, but it ensures that nobody feels awkward because they can’t afford to go.