just gonna to say this, you spent nearly 2 decades without speaking. best case scenerio you ask her if she ever felt that way about you, and shes says yes. then move forward form there. worst case she says no, and then you, as an adult, respect that, and move forward as the adults you both are now. or she totally ghosts you and you move on and dont speak for several more decades. either way youll survive.
however, it doesnt have to be all or nothing. if shes as cool as you say she is, she'll understand. its kind of difficult for two people of the opposite gender to be such good friends and then not question a mutual attraction from time to time. just be casual about it, dont force her into a corner or anything. if she doesnt see you that way, then just be a good friend. thats all you need to be. a romantic relationship is just friendship with sex and attraction, so you can still be friends without that. life isnt a movie. shes a grown ass woman, she'll understand.
just ask, or live not knowing and suffer for it. but dont be weird about it, be casual. be cool about it, ya know?
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